hm...it's been a while since i've even been to this site. i don't know why...just been busy with other things i guess. haven't felt like pouring my heart out in a while. guess today is one of those days though, V-Day being a very appropriate day for that i guess. I like how people just think nothing they say can effect anyone. i love how they think everything "...is just peachy!" We had a V-Day dance on Friday and i just cracked. somebody made a comment about my girlfriend and i making out when i was on the verge of tears and she was talking to me. I just started yelling at her and then i ran.....i just ran......i felt like running away from this town...i felt like disappearing forever. well, i got as far as the lockers and then colapsed, crying, i could barely breathe and frankly i didn't care who saw me. Jessi was there though.....she always has been....and she is there when i need her. i colapsed crying...but she knelt down with me...and just held me and talked to me. the rest of the night we sat on the steps leading to the drama room, and talked. we talked about life...and the life to come. what this world had in store for both of us. i realized that things aren't as bad as they seem. there's hope if you look for it. she showed me how to look for it. love you babe. ~Adam~