well, today started out absoluetly horrible on so many different levels. my parents were yelling at the top of their lungs at each other so i just stayed in my room because i didn't really want to get caught in the cross-fire. i made my girlfriend feel horrible, and that made me feel completely hopeless. i told my dad i was just going on a bike ride, except i really went to my girlfriends house to apologize and spend a little time with her. we got things worked out and now i'm doing pretty well. i'm still trying to hide from my parents so they don't aim and fire at me. i'm doing well though. i was tremedously scared that the happy feeling i had expressed wouldn't come back for a very long time once again, but it is back and everything is fine. i just hope i can hold onto it for a while longer.