Is there such a thing as pain that is created from the absence of loving oneself? Or is this pain I feel just from the lack of love from her. The lack of attention, respect. I used to think she was my best friend, the only who understood me, but now, she doesn't even look at me unless I'm angry. I don't understand why I get that way. I clam up, I stop talking to everyone, I work as hard as I can. There are times I feel so upset I begin to punch things. Why? Because I lack her attention? That's stupid! But I can't get her off my mind. I care so much for her, that it hurts me to think that she doesn't care back. I'm so lost. Stranded...Forgotten....Left Behind.... Is it true then? Am I lost in my own solitude...?