(I'm back from Wisconson. It was fun, but very long. We came in second place. Yaya! and took home the sportsmanship award. That was cool. Oh, and best sapranos. I think John and I have boinded more because of the trip. On the way home, I tried to sleep on his shoulder, but he doesn't understand how to be a pillow. He moved alot, so instead, he used my breasts as a pillow for himself. It started off as my shoulder, but then he "fell".) So , I that, I was over it. I thought I could be stronger than this. I worked with Ana today and everything was fine. We were talking and joking around. Then she left and Rissa came to work. We were having a good time too. Then, Ana came back up. Something in me changed when the two were together. I don't understand why it is. I became upset. I wanted to cry. Ana and Rissa gave me a ride home. I walked into my room, and stopped the tears from falling, but it was soo hard. I doon't understand. Why am I so upset? I like them both as friends. And sure, I have strong feeling for Rissa, but how is it I'm okay when alone with either of them, but when they are together I become overwhelmed with emotion? It hurts, and I don't even know why I'm hurting like this...