So...for once, I'm clueless on what to do. I'm the advise giver, unfortunately, I can't give advise to myself. Nor take my own. Whenever I think about him, I get chills. I don't know why. We are seriously just best freinds. On saturday we hung together all day again. I wore his shirt. I took it from him the first round but durin finals he handed it to me. He went out of his way too. They are doing soo good as a choir. It's amazing! Oh, and btw, we got first in the women's agauin. YAYness! So..back to the topic on hand. I really like being around him, but if we ever dated it would be weird. CJ knows. I told him. Big mistake. John left yetserday to get changed for finals and CJ goes "Why don't you just ask him out?" I couldn't believe he said that. My face turned red and I left the room. He approached me later too. I was waiting for John, so we could sit on the bus together, but he didn't come. He road in the equipment van instead. That upset me...but not much. I was walking to the buses and CJ was behind me. CJ: Why won't you? Me: I can't. CJ: You can't or you won't? Me: He doesn't even like me like that. CJ: You won't know until you try. Are you afraid of loosing what you have? Me: Yes. That's why. CJ: Maybe you should be more afraid of never knowing what you could have. I sat on the bus alone as we went home. I wanted cry. But I didn't. I couldn't, for some reason. I think it's because he was right. But that doesn't change anything. I won't ask him. I can't,. I am too afraid of losing our friendship. Besides.. Okay, there is no besides. But...I'm just too scared. I'm already going to have to work up enough courage to ask him to be my walking partner and my prom date. I don't need more pressure.