Well it's almost over...the silence, the peace It's hours away from getting shattered by my demented family. But still I am glad that while they were gone I had time to chill out and listen to absolutely nothing. ♥ I have had the chance to chill and unwind from the past few weeks. To be honest I wasn't sure how much more of everything I could have taken without a break. I feel like over the last month alone I have been fighting everyone I come in contact with. Maybe it's me but fuuucccckkk you think the universe could have just picked one person to hate me at a time. I had my mother, my girl's mother, my best friend and me and my girlfriend got into a few fights. But then like I said I am glad I had this break it gave me a chance to refill my sanity cup and get ready for the next attack. I wish I had longer but beggers can't be choosers. I am happy that my girl and I got back to how we were, it was touch and go for awhile there.

You ever just have one of those moments where you stop close your eyes and pray that when you open them everything will be different, everything will be just a dream? I had a few of those moments over the last few weeks. They weren't exactly fun...especially after I opened my eyes. But again. Feeling 100 times better now because of this break. I got to spend some time with my girl and we got to just hang out without her mom up her ass without my family being assholes. I got to just fucking chill. I can't even begin to tell you how much of a rarity that is for me, I can never relax, ever. I am always getting wound up and stepped on like a spring that someone won't let bounce back. To walk out of my room and not get bombarded by viciousness. It's..refreshing to say the least.

But I can't seem to say it enough I am so happy that me and my girl got to spend so much time together. I have never loved anyone like I love that girl. It's insane everything is so different with her. Everything I feel and everything I think it's just so much more then it was before. I wish I had better words to describe how I feel about her but for now LOVE is the best anyone has ever come up with. Anyway I am in dire need of a cigarette and more coffee, so now I will begin that adventure. You know I think I like this sitdiary thing, might keep at it.