What can I say even here that doesn't make me feel like a broken record? Today my life sucks.

Today I don't care about anything.

Or anybody.

I want to lay in bed and read.

I want to bitch about how being so depressed makes me ache all over. I want to stop thinking about things that scare the shit out of me and also sound appealing, I am falling apart today, I feel like I have nothing today, I feel like I am nothing today and I just don't want to deal with me so I don't want to have to make anyone else deal with me. I am a medicated mess and I know it.

Atleast I am a self aware train wreck.

Life would be easier if drugs made things better long term and short term. Look at me wallow I am getting to be such a pro. Woo!