Yeah I am worn the fuck out. The demented family leaves on Tuesday I can hear the angels starting to sing already.

Sighs~ I don't do well at night. I have too much on my mind. I am upset cause I can't seem to make anyone happy lately. All me and my best friend do is fight and my GF is upset about just about everything I have been doing lately I don't know. Ever feel like you can't do anything right? Yeah that's me. Today hasn't been great but I have been running away from it all day, think it's starting to catch up with me.

I am feeling nostaligic today I keep remembering all the fun I used to have. Not that I would want to have that kind of fun again but you know, just the feeling of not caring was nice but that's the addict in me talking. I have been looking for a way to not care since I was 12 years old and I knew I COULD just not care.

I am tired of arguing to be really honest and I feel like that is all I do. I either argue or I walk on eggshells trying NOT to argue then my temper frays and I have to argue. Go figure. Wish I had a way to vent all this shit out sometimes. I am tired of writing poetry it all comes out the same. I would paint but I just can't bring myself to do it.

Yeah this diary is jumpy I know.

My ex is turning into me, or how I used to be should I say. I know this is random but I came across something and I found out she is doing to the people around her what her and I did to eachother except she is playing my role...she grew down it's kind of weird and fucked up and I don't care so much as just curious. If I think about she is the one that made me always think people where hiding things from me because that's all she used to do. Honestly I don't know whats up with me I am just so worn out I can't seem to make sense or keep my thoughts to one at a time.