Actually I'm quit hot but tonite I gotta work and ummm I haven't really been up to much lately! Wednesday is the last day of school you have no idea how excited I am! I miss summer but I'm gonna miss school since I'm a senior and umm I'm never going back to north again I seriously am so excited but sad at the same time! luv ya

I'm at school right now and I'm missing me family. I haven't been home in a couple days. I finally moved into our my apartment with Andy, it's wonderful....We don't really have that much stuff in there yet because I haven't moved anything of mine over yet except some clothes but other than that I've been having a blast Ohhh and just to let you know after me and tony broke up he got engaged to this girl lindsay and she bought him this really nice camaro and so he met this other chic and broke up with lindsay and then she told the cops that he stole the camaro from her so now he's in jail for that and personly I think he deserves it!

I'm at school right now and I'm missing me family. I haven't been home in a couple days. I finally moved into our my apartment with Andy, it's wonderful....We don't really have that much stuff in there yet because I haven't moved anything of mine over yet except some clothes but other than that I've been having a blast Ohhh and just to let you know after me and tony broke up he got engaged to this girl lindsay and she bought him this really nice camaro and so he met this other chic and broke up with lindsay and then she told the cops that he stole the camaro from her so now he's in jail for that and personly I think he deserves it!

I'm tired off people I'm tired of life right now I don't really have any one I can confind in people take me for granted and I'm seriously sick of it! I hate Casey Crogg for one thing and I can't do this any more I can't keep pretending to be someone I'm not I'm not this perfect skinny girl I'm not a sexy super model I'm me and that's who I'm going to stay forever and for always That's me your crazy white gurl Forever For Life

I'm tired and I really do not want to work tonite this literally sux mwah andy!

I think that's a pretty word! For how I'm feeling today lol pretty! Some girl came up to me today and I said I had really pretty eyes! I was like aww that's sweet of you! I'm lovin life! mwah Chantel

Today is my orientation for my new job! I'm so excited! And I'm going to see my grandma I haven't seen her in a really long time and I miss her! I haven't talked to andy since last nite he's suppose to pick me up after my orientation I miss his sexy self! I love LOVe! I want summer to come so fast I can't wait until I graduate it's gonna be amazing. Me and andy are really interested in this one apartment it's two bedrooms but trust me we will be sleeping in the same bedroom! mwah

I'm feeling experimental in more ways than one! ***If you catch my drift

Went to Stick it with Andy it was great. He's great Life's great!

I'm pumped for this weekend so much going on me and andy are looking at apartments since I'll be 18 soon and then can move out on my own. And were shopping for house hold stuff it's amazing!

I'm soo tired today had a long day yesterday.... and today I had to get up at 5:30 It wasn't fun at all. I've been pretty deprived lately between all the parties tanning booths jogging walking getting up early and going out w/ Andy I just want to take one day all to myself and just lay in a bubble bath and listen to some soft music and then maybe have andy come over. I need to go shopping. Me and Andy are planning on living together in a apartment since he works at menards and I'm a waitress! We make alright money. So I'm pretty excited about that since things with my family are troublesome I had an urge to throw-up today because I ate subway. But I called andy and he told me I didn't need to and he loves my body. And he say my new header picture and he's like is that you lol I was like no laughs he's like damn it looks like u lol! I love him!

I'm in a very bad mood right now. And not really for any certain reason. but I talked to Andy last nite and he was out w/ a few friends. He came and picked me up and we went to the movie RV cuz I wanted to see it really bad. We couldn't stop laughing. It's a memory I'm gonna remember forever! I miss him right now! I just am really pissed and I don't really know why probably because of all the drama in my life w/ my friends! And family situations! Smooches

Hey tonite is gonna be so much fun! I'm going over to my grandma's house w/ Andy. Isn't he a sweetheart he wants to meet my grandma... And were gonna go walking and then Andy's paying for us to go to the Olive Garden. I was like you don't have to do that! But he wanted to. I miss him right now that he's at work and I have nothin to do! I think I should go for a drive cuz it's lunch hour and my friends are all on this one trip for a class that I'm not in. So I'm in the library! Gonna go so I can go catch up w/ Jess

Andy bought me a dog :) her name's Ginger and she's a German Shepard the cutest dog I have ever seen. When he brought it over I almost started crying. That is the sweetest thing someone has ever done for me. He wants to take things slow but he said that he saw the dog at the human association and he thought it was perfect for me. She is seriously the sweetest dog I have ever met. Andy I love you hun. You make everything so perfect!

I'm feeling amazing....me and andy couldn't be better. I feel like a princess... I miss u babe!

Hey, Andy is truely amazing no one has ever been as sweet and there for me as him! Perfect he treats me so great I just I couldn't ask for more. And I know he would never hurt me I know. It's just something you know I thought that about tony to but not as much tony was way more distant and not so much there and more about just sex and even though sex is great w/ Andy I know that's not the reason he's with me! No one can ever replace him. I know I love him but I'm not quite in love it takes me a very long time to be in love with someone!

wow that rice krispie was hella good! Well this weekend is gonna be exciting so far this week has rocked my sox! I miss my dog tho shes such a sweetie *Lilly*!!! Andy and me are officially dating *****!~ I miss that kid. He's so amazing he treats me like a princess and show's me off to all his friends well duh not trying to sound concieted but who wouldn't! I'll always love tony and it still hurts to think about him but I know I can move on and everything will be ok!

Friday: working on this huge project for english that's due on monday! Then renting some movies w/ andy! Saturday: helping my mom with her thrift sale then driving to fairchild to visit Chad and Kevin cuz I haven't hung out w/ them in forever! Sunday: Sittin in my house on my couch in my slippers and pj's next to the fireplace watching movies all day and text messaging and calling people and probably taking a long bubble bath then getting cleaned up all pretty and going to the tanning booth then the get my roots re highlighted! I love guys!

I'm really not but I wish I was. I got my nails done everyone's like omg were'd u get ur nails done and I'm like the mall and they're like they're gorgeous. I love them to. well other than that write more later!

So powerful was the telephonic pillow-talking, seemed safe fantasy with dangerous reality. I don't know whether our telephone relationship was more intellectual or sexual.... We met eyes so that our bodies bumped and grind now we're passing by in time intellectual or sexual? Feeling your breath on the back of my neck with a body wrapped mine is so physical--its physical. So powerful was the whispering insanity, dreams now a reality on the edge of fantasy