Last nite I watched Ladder 49 and the notebook all alone image how that made me feel well it wasn't good! and by the way I bawled during ladder 49 then while watching the notebook I bawled sooo much I quite watching it yeah. That's how much it sux to be alone I mean seriously u would think hah no big deal. But wut happened between me and rodd was sooo amazing at least it was for me and we met it the weirdest way imaginable and in ladder 49 they met in the grocery store lol. I mean it stinks so bad to know u put all out and they think hah she's stupid so lets see how many girls we can sleep w/ before she finds out I mean seriously get a clue ya jerk off. No one should be treated that way! I know we broke up on the 20th of november and I'm still talking about it I mean seriously how much does that suck. And him wanting me back only is making things worse on me b/c I know I can't go back to him I know I can't and it sux so bad to want to but not be able to. I am able to but that's only gonna put myself in a worse place of getting hurt and I am not up for that wut so ever. So he can think wut ever he wants but it aint gonna happen!~