I know Aimee will appreciate this so here goes..... GOD!! IDIOT!! (Napolean) Anyway, I say that because i am an idiot.... Aimee and I have such a great relationship and we try to make things go as well as possible. We are sweet to eachother, we joke around, we get romantic, we have fun..... and then I have to go and do something to make things uncomfortable and upsetting between us.... Get it, it's my fault, not hers... Im such a dumbass. Tonight I found out that Ishy has her microphone online, and i wanted to hear Aimee say hi to me, and she was nervous and scared to say anything, and I had to be a big freakin idiot and get all upset and make her feel bad and when she did say something, she said she was sorry, and I had already turned my mic off so i didnt even hear her say it. Whats worse is when she did finally say something she said she was sorry, all because of me acting like a jerk....... We settled it and everythings ok now, but god I still feel bad for doing that to her. It's just I lover he sweet voice so much and all i wanted to hear was a simple hello and she didnt wanna do it, so what do i do? I make a big deal out of it and acted like a jerk to her... and for that im sorry, so very sorry, and I know ive said it a hundred times to her already, and even though it's settled and we have moved on, again im sorry Aimee and I hope you dont hold this against me in the long run. I realize now that she was nervous, and her and her sister both are like that as Ishy explained to me, but I was so upset at the time of the argument i didnt completely realize it till afterwards when I said I was sorry. Anyway.... I know Aimee loves me, I know she cares about me, I know she loves talking to me, and I know when we are together in person she will talk to me and we will carry on great conversations like we do in chat, so, I over reacted big time and for that im a dipshit.... I'm just sooo thankful I have a girl that puts up with my crap and loves me as much as she does, any other woman would have left me and told me to fuck off by now. She is so patient with me, and for that i am truely grateful. Dont get me wrong people, we dont have problems or argue ALL THE TIME, but when we do, which isnt very often, it seems to always be my fault, im the one that makes a big deal out of something, so to you Aimee my baby, thank you so much for putting up with me when i get like that. I know we have a great relationship, but still I need to work on not making a big deal out of small crap. I love you so very much and i'd hate to lose you someday because i over react to something stupid and you have had enough and tell me to fuck off. Id just wanna die if that ever happened...... So, again im sorry and I promise I wont make a big deal out of stupid crap anymore, from now on it will just be me and you, having fun and being happy together, forget this trivial bullcrap I get upset over.... GOD (Napolean again) Ok well, now that i got that off my chest, I dont really have anything else to say. I could go on and on about how much I love Aimee and how happy and grateful I am to be with her, but i've said it a million times already so like Aimee herself said "Wont people get bored if you keep talking about that all the time?" lol.... so yeah... Aimee knows how much I love and appreciate her, and im sure you other people would get bored hearing me talk about it alllll the time so..... Only thing I have to say for this entry is about her though, I wrote a letter back to her and will send it to her tomorrow morning, along with a couple gifts :) I hope she will like them. Unfortunately I dont have a lot of money to buy her anything expensive, but I know she will like them, how? well I wont say cause she is going to read this entry and I dont wanna give the surprise away lol... Ok well thats all I have for now, I love you Aimee, and I always will, and again im sorry for being a jerk about stupid crap sometimes, I promise I wont do it anymore. Laters people!