I'm so sore it's funny. My throat is killing me and I've been ill for days. Yesterday I spent the day driving up to Corvallis for my sister's first Thanksgiving on her own. I went up with my dad... I told her I wouldn't miss it for the world. And here I am. Yesterday mostly I pretended I was elsewhere. Trying to forget old memories of trips with dad. Arguements and such. Needless to say.. It was a very long day. Usually I'm up all night but by the time I got here I was exhausted. I guess it wasn't all bad. It was enough to weaken my resolve. Enough to make me wish I was back before I left... But I'm not stupid. I just kind of wish it wasn't so hard. I never know where I'm going to be the next day. What I'm going to be doing... It's stressful but I guess I'm okay with it. Tabby finally left... I miss her terribly. When she left I didn't realize it was for bumfuck egypt. I can't get a hold of her and it's starting to irritate me. She had her phone turned off, which I expected. But she promised to keep in touch. We're at a week with no contact. I've decided my best friend is missing... Now I feel as if I'm being purposefully avoided. um.. Can you say yay? Also... We have officially split. Roo and I are still friends... But Jill and I aren't... Tabby and I are... Possibly, like I said... being avoided. This is all stupid stuff and I have a lot to do today... So maybe I'll put my real thoughts down later.. After I do my share of the cooking. Hugs, Roxy