So much for Halloween. I had plans tonight. Got all dressed up and yet here I am, wasting my time on the computer. I guess I'm kind of glad though. I haven't really talked to anyone in ages. Didn't have time to. I'm on vacation in Corvallis right now. Things at home have been getting rough.. and long. There are currently 8 people living in a 3 bedroom house. Awesome isn't it? I share a room with two people. One of my best friends, Tabby, My uncle's friend, Rene. I'm really glad I got the oppurtunity to escape. Everyone at home seems to be mixed in the drug scene but Roo. I'm sick of it. Sick of them trying to pressure me into it. If I wanted to do drugs I'd have done it by now. If I wanted to waste my time on that shit I'd have had plenty of oppurtuinity seeing as my parents were/are drug addicts. I'm not possitive on the sobriety sort of thing. Seeing as my parents are just off like that. I know for sure my mom is I'm not stupid... But dad's fiancee was caught and he made a point to move out... Question is... Is he faking his sober thing too? He certainly acts like it. He had Pocahoe put to sleep. Those of you who saw her.. You know how bad that hurt... Dad didn't tell me about it... Not till a "celebrational" dinner... and a going away dinner for me three days after he had her put to sleep. I broke down and cried in a restaraunt... Everyone was looking at me as if I were a child. One whose been very bad. Or has irritated them so much if they weren't afraid of the law they'd have slapped me. I don't remember what else happened while I was there.. I just remember being completely miserable and being told to eat because I've lost so much weight he's afraid I'm anorexic. Then I don't eat.. and I leave... I wake up in a completely different place with new people and a bit of peace. Atleast for the rest of this week. I leave Saturday. I left Saturday.. a week of freedom.. A week without my friends... without the fairweather ones... Without the ones that I hardly spend a minute without. A week alone. With time to think... Time to sleep... and hopefully get over my sickness. Roxy