Josh - How It Started : So it occurs to me I probably never mentioned Joshua before.. We got together a little after a month after I started working at taco bell.. I think our first date we went and saw nacho libre.. Mainly cause Saraha said it was awesome.. And we couldn't think of anything else to do.. Afterwards we went to the lake for a bit.. and to dinner.. I didn't really eat.. Wasn't hungry.. I'd eaten at work before that.. But whatever.. Pointless details right? Josh was a really nice guy.. Whenever we'd go out he'd open the door for me.. Always wanted to hold my hand.. Constantly paying attention to me.. * Sometimes too much.. Okay.. Usually too much.. Especially when I was eating * But I still liked him a lot.. And what was more important? My friends liked him as well.. * A few too much.. (Lydia) * All and all it was a very interesting experience... I can't really say anything other then interesting.. Because there's just so much I have to say.. That I'd never be finished. Not in a million years at least.. How it Ended : So.. I'm moving to Astoria in a week from today..? Well a week and two days ago.. Josh and I met a bunch of my friends at vibes.. You know one of those last time things. And he left me there.. And didn't call me for three days.. And when he finally did.. He was breif.. And I knew what was coming before he got here. It still didn't keep me from being happy. We went to the store for some random reason.. And my Ne Ne.. * Cousin's God Mother * was there at work.. And I introduced them.. For some reason he really wanted to meet her.. Probably because I told him my Ne was here and I didn't want to go in and say hello.. Or deal with what she had to say.. I dunno.. That day it was totally unlike either of us.. When he first showed up I didn't give him a hug like I normally did.. And instead of sitting next to me he sat across from me.. And there was no hand holding.. The only thing normal was him opening the door for me. Anyway, back to what I was saying before that.. When he was driving me home.. He said something along the lines of.. "I don't think we can see eachother anymore.. One of my ex girlfriends asked me back out.. and I think I'm gonna go back out with her.. Plus I really don't think she'd like it if I told her I already have a girlfriend.. But we can be together in like.. a week." I was just like.. "That's cool.. I mean.. all really up to you.." I don't think I frowned or anything.. I mean.. I was really good about it. I didn't show any emotions.. Well.. Not any negative ones atleast.. It takes a long time to break down the walls.. But only an instant to put them back up. So we got to my house.. and he asked if I still wanted to hang out for a bit.. I said sure.. and we sat on my porch for a little bit.. Before he had to go.. And I walked him to his car.. Gave him a hug.. He told me to call if I ever needed anything.. and to call when I was back in town for good.. and when I walked away I did it with a smile on my face.. "Keep In Touch" That was the last thing I said to him... I saw him at work three days ago..? It was rather odd.. Hard for me to breathe at first.. I was really surprised to see him again.. But you know.. We're required to act happy and be nice and polite no matter what.. So I don't think anyone really knew I was upset. Except for Jill and Laura.. * co-workers and very good friends of mine * But only cause we had a little chat in our off time.. I cried over him once.. But that was it.. When I think about him now.. It's always with a smile.. We had fun while it lasted and that's what counted.. Leaving : I leave in 7 days.. I got a phone call this morning from a friend.. She whispered 7 days and hung up.. I couldn't help but laugh.. I started my day off at about 5:30.. I finally left for work at about 9:30.. Got there and still had 10 minutes or so to chat.. Relax a bit and catch up with my friends and co-workers.. Spent the day at work very busy.. Towards the end of the day Chase and I were on drive thru.. Switching back and forth between cashier and order taker as the situation called for.. I had a lot of fun in that last half hour.. But then again whenever I work with Chase I do.. I've had a little crush on him for ages.. And we always flirt back and forth.. Which makes work a little easier to deal with.. And everyone on night crew is sad to see me leave at the end of my shift.. Funny how I'm always ready.. Except when Chase is around... I procrastinate a bit about leaving... A few of my co-workers are upset with me because I'm leaving.. Hopefully it'll blow over and everything will be okay with us before I leave.. I mean it'd suck to go away with them hating me.. Well Hamza, Bernie, Nick and Blue can hate me.. I don't really care.. if they do.. They're all perverted assholes anyway. I mean.. I have to deal with Hamza commenting on how I look like a 15 year old.. and then five minutes later talking about my tits... Bernie teasing me because Blue has a thing for me.. And yes Bernie had a crush on me before Blue did.. He just gave up when I told him to fuck off.. Nick randomly asks me out all the time.. I think only cause he knows it makes me want to sock him.. and Blue.. is 35 years old.. and won't drop his little crush on me.. And doesn't realize that him being more then half my age absolutely disgusts me. I'm really gonna miss the ladies on the crew though.. I mean Laura's a sweetheart.. Though you'd never know it in passing.. Jillian.. I've known Jillian forever and I really enjoy working with her.. Most of the time.. Danelle brings a little sunshine into everyones day.. Even when she's in a bad mood.. Tammy is crazy.. Which makes her a constant source of entertainment.. Pleasie is a great person.. Really a family oriented kind of gal.. And she rocks.. Karol.. A very nice lady.. She was only hired a couple of weeks ago.. but I don't know how we ever worked without her.. Elno and Sihler.. Two of the funniest women you will ever meet.. And when they're cussing you out.. it's the cutest thing.. * They've never cussed me out.. But you know.. I've heard Hamza and Nick get it a bunch of times * There are just so many people I'm gonna miss it's horrible.. That's just co-workers.. So am I having second thoughts? No.. I just know I'm gonna miss them.. And I hope that all goes well with them.. I keep thinking over all of the days I've had with my friends, co-workers, family.. basically just all of the things I have so much fun doing.. That I probably won't have the opportunity to do so in Astoria.. So I guess I wait for Christmas Vacation, Summer Break, and my graduation.. But am I coming back to Medford for good? I don't think so.. To the Valley? Probably not.. I don't know if I'll ever trully belong here again or if I'll ever want to.. Okay.. Going to shut up now.. This is way way way long enough... Roxy