because i'm lazy, i'm basically going to copy and paste an email i sent to a friend. lol im too tired to think and write an entry, and the email i sent her sums up my weekend. so yea elizabeth, if you see this lol u dont have to leave a note b/c its the email i sent you

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I'm feeling very sick at the moment, but that is my own fault, and hilarious if you ask me. Friday after school, I went to my friend Jess' house. She was having a slumber party for her 16th birthday party, and invited me and a few of her friends from school. At first, I didn't want to go b/c I was the youngest and I didn't know the other girls too well being we live about 30 minutes away. But to my suprise I really enjoyed myself and needed that time to be a kid. I never get to be with a group of girls who accept you for you, and who you can be yourself around. I've never been able to stay up late, and goof off and dance around in goofy outfits. It was wonderful. Friday, at school, I also wrote my friend's mom a letter. She is real involved with her church and real close to God, and you know, lately I've been burdened with a lot whether it be my own fault or something out of my control. But I prayed about it and God told me to go to Jeanine (my friend's mom). So I wrote her a letter and told her about everything that's been holding me down. And boy, I can't begin to describe how I feel getting that off my chest and telling an adult that I KNOW will be there for me whenever I should need her. I didn't want the others to see me giving her the note so I gave it to her when no one was watching. She came out there later, after she had read it, and just looked at me and gave me such a heart-warming smile and immediately I knew it was going to be okay; that I'm not alone. She hugged me and said "be brave little girl". Today around 10am she came out there and asked me to come with her. We went into her bedroom and talked away from everyone else. She said that she slipped my letter randomly into her Bible. When she flipped open her Bible to where my letter was and it was opened to this verse: (she placed the letter in there randomly; did not intend to stick it anywhere in particular) 2 Corinthians 12:9 - But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me Then it follows in verse 10 saying - That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. It was just...wow. It's like God saying "I'm here, do you believe me now? I know what's going on and I want to help, will you let me now?" I can't explain it but it's so amazing. It was hard not to cry. I tried to hold it in, but I could feel God so close, He was wrapping His awesome, loving arms around me. I have a room at there house always open if I should want to stay with them to get away things here. Also, they invited me to go to a youth conference with their church. That is so awesome! These people rock! GOD ROCKS! He knows what I need, and He's making it to where I can get it! It's just..wow. She gave me some devotionals and stuff to read about spiritual warfare, and just some things for me to read that she thinks will help me. She was saying how much she admires me. She said it's so amazing though, that I have wisdom and strength beyond my years. She said that God has placed so much strength in me, that He's preparing to do something big with my life and it's going to be so awesome. She said I've already impacted her life, simply because I've been staying happy and smiling, and still looking at the Lord, despite my circumstances. I'm so glad I talked to her. What else...lol....sorry this is so long. I had the biggest sugar high last night and now I'm feeling majorly sick. It was so awesome though, b/c I've never done that before. I've never just hung out with kids and goofed off like that...but now the rush has left me and I'm feeling like I'm going to blow chunks everywhere..lol yea, lovely mental picture. But no, this slumber party turned out to be a blessing in disguise. Praise God! I'm really going to be okay, I'm happy again, and I am even more in love and hungry for the Lord than I think I've ever been. yup that's all lol i'll write again soon take it easy and God bless you all