Sorry for not writing in this thing much, I never enjoy it as much as I once did. Anyway, I've got nothing else to do, so I'm going to start updating this thing more, although people never read it. Anyhoo... Things have been interesting lately...and I've had my share of ups and downs, but God's awesome and strong when we are weak. I layed it all down at the altar last night and just lifted all the junk I've been holding onto up to God...I won't lie, I still hurt - but sometimes the healing process takes a while...but I know Jesus is there every step of the way, holding my hand..even carrying me when necessary, and that gives me hope. Also, I have some awesome friends who are being super awesome right now (thanks, you know who you are!). But please, if you will...still continue to pray for me - because I'm still struggling with a lot of things. Thanks so much! Last night at church, the youth choir sung, and we talked about youth conference and gave testimonies. I spoke in front of the church and gave my testimony..wow I was SO nervous with all those people watching and listening, but God spoke through me and several people came to me, saying how my words and just having me at the church has been such a blessing. Praise GOD! That's awesome..but I talked about how we all go through trials and that life can be a storm, but when we call on Jesus, He rescues us and when we think we are at our lowest, He will pick us up - and be our strength! ISN'T THAT AWESOME? I think so.. What else has been going on...um...this dude hurt my feelings - but yea. I met this guy back in January I think it was, and he was AWESOME! I mean, we automatically clicked, and just got along together so well. I've never met a guy like him, that I am so comfortable talking to, and can go to him about ANYTHING. At the time he had a girlfriend, and I was just getting out of a bad relationship..so we were only interested in eachother's friendship. Well, silly me ends up getting this huge crush on him, and his g/f dumped him a few months ago...and he started liking me back. But I wanted to take things slow..because, I had my heart broken not too long ago, and I don't want to get hurt again. Anyway, the other night he was telling me how much he really liked me and was going to wait for me..etc etc and that was really sweet and made me like him more actually. But he's interested in some stuff I'm not ready for, so I was straight up with him and told him IF we dated, that wouldn't happen and he respected that. Obviously he doesn't like me as much as he thought, because he got a new girlfriend the next day and has been rubbing it in my face ever since. BLAH! He doesn't even realize he hurt my feelings..but whatever. Okay..I'm done talking about guys - had to get that out though..blah. But yup, that's all that's been happening lately. For the most part at least...I'll write soon take it easy and God bless you all