So today was the first day of summer show. The evening was pretty blah. Except one or two parts stand out in my mind. the first) *** is so at home in the show and with the people that she is no longer in this show my best friend in this situation. I have no one really. So, i guess it will be a friend making experience. two) When ***'s guy friend, who had never met me before in his life, told me i had beautiful eyes, *** kinda flipped. perhaps it's usually her position to be the one that everyone calls beautiful. but it seems she couldn't let me live in my only moment when i was beautiful, even if it was only one part of my body. She HAD to ask "are my eyes beautiful too?" maybe sometime in my life... i will be the beautiful one. But until that day, i life under and behind the shadow of my friend, hoping for a glance, a smile, a small comment toward my own self.