I think he might be doing this on purpose. maybe, just maybe, he's trying, after learning i check my mail all the time, no send me any mail so then i will be filled with angst. but that seems really mean. really really mean. and i'm not sure he's that mean. but what if he is? what if he is, intentionally, trying to hurt me even though he's dating laura (ish) and therefore has no need for my feelings to remain in tact. ugh. i hate men. maybe i should sing that in theatre. mhm..