Well... i'm not gonna see will...Chelsea doesnt want to meet owen. and owen is the only way Will can get up here...and if will doesnt get up here i'm one angry bitch...so...i'm pissed. Then my mom was pissing me off so bad that day. and then i thought of another idea and ashley didnt want to do it so...i've been pissed off all week...so i wont get to see will. ugg...i wanted to see him so so so so so so so bad...but nope everyone fucks up my plan... If the phone bill comes i'll be grounded for life...so i have to keep the phone bill until after thursday becasue i want to go to the carnival. witch i wanted to go with will..but ya know how that worked out... omg shannon called me yesterday...i was so happy. i havent talked to her all summer. i missed her. and then i'm sending out invitations for my party. Will woke me up this morning. I always wake him up so it was ok. Hes the only person i'll let wake me up and not be mad. god i love him so much...i...theres just no words to explain..oh and then chelseas like "you dont know what love is. your too young. you say this becusae he was your only boyfriend" bull shit..i had other boyfriends besides Will...and i never felt the way i feel with will when i was with them...she cant tell me taht i dont know what love is. she cant say who i can love or not love. god i hate it when people do that. when they try telling you how you feel. that is one of the many things that pisses me off... I was so close to punching something yesterday. i think i was so mad that i didnt. becsaue the day before taht i was punching stuff. but w/e people can go to hell. let me just live my life how i want it. its not they're choice who i love, how i feel, what i do...if i make a mistake i'll learn from it. but anyways now that i got that out... today i am just gonna lounge around the house. my mom is working..thank god. i got alot of stuff for my party yesterday. elysia got in a car accident..all i know is that she was T-boned by kenny cumo. and she was riding with jesse and she lost her hearing in one of her ears and she broke a few fingers and she side is all scratched up. but shes ok thank god. well i think i'm gonna go back to bed or something. maybe watch tv. i'll write sometime later.. -Kayla