if i put everything people call me and tell me i become a stupid fat failin untrustworthy cheap ho. i think tat is all of them i had a really bad day today Jon pissed me off first thing this morning apparently he believes that i am the one who tells his sis everything tat he pulls when im not i use to care but fuck him i am sick of being blamed for that he was like i guess i am goin to have to quit talkin to everybody that talks to my sis i really think he juss wants me to quit hangin out with kris well sorry i aint given up a close friend for him well the rest of the day was blown and i felt horrible the rest of the day and after school i was goin nuts and i ended up cuttin myself then i went for a long walk which seemed to calm me down a little later my mom was complainin bout the puppies because we r havin a hard time housebreakin them well she kept threatenin to kill them and it was seriously makin me mad and i finally juss freaked out and she told i was stupid for carin about my puppies so much and shit like that i argued for a few then i finally went back into my room and i ended up cryin then i cut again and after i started writin in my journal thing then i ended up cryin again and finally i went for a walk then played with my puppies and since then everything seems to be fine oh and Laci yeah i probably do let Jon walk all over me but yeah i let a lot of people do it if u havent noticed sorry it has been my way probably y i have all my problems it will be ohk I Love You