It is final. I am going down this wednesday to join the army. I am starting to get nervous and scared. I mean it is going to be four to five years of my life spent under the control of other people. Oh wait that would be the truth outside of the army to. Well I have like four more years to decide what i want to be in life. I am still really afraid of failing at Basic. I got up today and went running at the ymca. It took me almost 13 mins to run the mile and i have to run it in 10 1/2 mins. not good not good at all but i pbly could take off some of that time by running the whole thing but yeah i walked like two laps in total. It takes tweenty laps at the ymca to run a mile. I am so scared that I wont be able to handle Basic but Sargeant Shirey promises me I will be in great shape when he is done. I have to lose twelve pounds now. 5 each month until they are gone. talk about hard in the enviroment i live in. I cant wait until i am done with Basic because i think the rest will be ok from then on...??? well i dont know if i will get on again before i go to MEPS but yeah ttyl