May 4,2004 Yesterday was awful. my parents went to there classes so it was just Keenan, Niki, and Me. well i decided to remodel my room cuz i had nothin better to do so i got tat done for the most part and Keenan comes in my room complaining bout how hungry he was cuz we havent had a real meal since like Thurs so we r always hungry well i kept myself busy so i didnt think bout it finally he left cuz i pissed him off when i told him to either shut up or go eat dry cereal or pickles or sumthin well this whole day all Niki has done is screach and she wouldnt just be quiet and she is mostly my girl but i am allergic to her so i dont like to hold her lot cuz i break out well so she yelled and yelled and she had my stomach twisted up in knots cuz she was so loud and i just kept yelling at her then my parents finally got home and the dang bird was still screechin then my parents and Keenan got into a fight and that upset Niki more and she tried bitin my mom and finally i started yellin at the bird and my mom yelled at me and i started cryin cuz i juss couldnt stand it anymore i was so sick to my stomache and i felt awful all i wanted to do was cut but i knew i couldnt do it and it was horrible i hated it and it was all so stupid