Is it true that nothing is forever..? I mean, I know that when I die that it will.. but while I'm still alive? while I can still feel...breath...smell? thoughts flutter through my brain... thoughts of lonelyness I once felt.. What is it that I'm afraid of..? commitment? no. losing? yes. pain? yes. not seeing his face everyday upon awakening? yes. Just hearing a couple so deeply inlove break up without notice breaks my heart... why? because the boy has changed.. the girl, left to suffer as she drowns in her own tears... I'm afraid of change... change in him, change in me.. it's happened in a year..and it will happen once again as time goes by... is it ok to be afraid of change? we all change... change for the better...sometimes for the worst.. So the answer to my own question "do I love him?" is answered tonight. I do.. with my body, my soul, my heart. I love you... now let me suck up the balls and tell you...