I want to be strong so bad, but I can't do it anymore. I've maintained my confidence and my self worth for the past 3 years, but I feel it has deminished down to almost nothing. I'm to blame for everything and I've started to beleive that myself. I'm tired and exhausted and I don't have one once of motivation left in my body. We don't respect eachother. Mostly I don't respect myself because I've let a man control me and manipulate me. I'm my mother, my aunts, my grandmother. I'm a firm beleiver that love isn't everything in a relationship, but it seems that's the only reasons I'm still here. oh and I owe my life to him.