The minute we pulled up the drive way to see him run like a little girl across the pavement made my heart go 100 beats per second. I shot out of the car as fast as I could just to find myself in a uophoria in his arms. I squeezed him so hard I felt I broke his ribs. I could tell he was nervous because there wasn't one second of silence coming from his mouth. I sat on the couch listening and looking him bable and stumble on words. That little shy 2 year old inside him showed.. it always shows when he's around me, and I like it. we jumped on the back of the truck and snuk a few kisses now and then when no one was looking, I felt like I was back in 5th grade all over again. That night was fun. we rented a hotel with a couple of friends... we were shameless.. if you didn't see the person you cared about for 3 months you'd be shameless too... or maybe it was just the alcohol, either way we didn't care that there was 2 people sleeping next to us in the other bed... The alcohol in his breath wasn't very appealing, but it was that or nothing at all. We didn't sleep that night. Everyday that went by felt like a dream.. the smallest things felt good. The way he held my hand when we walked down the street, making sure that he pays no attention to anybody but me. or those surprise kisses on the cheek/forhead that throw me off. the way he'll stare at me and kiss my hand. or the way he writes little messages on my hands. I wish this past week didn't go as fast as it did... I wish the days lasted longer than 24 hours. It felt as if we both lived there all over again... It felt so good just laying around doing nothing all day... cuddling, messing around, making jokes, watching porn. Then night came along and off we went drinking long necks and jumping in jacuzzies. I don't miss the smell of smoke on my hair.. the sleepless nights after tripping out on speed...or the days when I had no money left for food... but I'd want it all back in one second if I could just spend it with him. so here we go again... I'll wait however long, aslong as you promise me the same feeling of bliss in the air when we're together again. I miss you.