I'm not sure what mercurial means. I start school on Monday. Woot....College. 'Tis going to be freakin awesome. I guess I've been doing a pretty poor job of keeping this thing updated. It says I don't have any friends anymore. That's pretty sad. I have no friends. Stacey's always been there for me. : )

Tomorrow is National Friendship Day.... Yay! I'm going down to Lincoln! Literally...it's a holiday. I didn't make it up.

My sister's a model (check her username *Stasis* ) : ) I'm uber exhausted. Sariously....all I've been doing since being out of school is working. I can't complain, I've only got $200 or so left to pay off on my car until it's finally all mine (mwahaha). There was a very little night out tonight. We (Jordan, Jared, Jamie, Jennifer, Taylor and myself) went to the Old Market and just walked around. To make myself fit into the group better, my name for the day was Joll, so, if you ever see me again, feel free to use that terminology with me. My test results of my lab work came back with a low hemoglobin count and a low hemotacrit count....so, my red blood count was down and it's not good. I've exhausted myself and I'm "burning the candle at both ends" as Sarah says. I think I'll be taking it easy for a while. Pray for me anyway guys. Never underestimate the power of prayer. : ) I'll end with that: Never underestimate the power of prayer.

I'm not too sure what Kawaii means, but...it was the first word that I came across. I'm starting to feel the effects of being busy and not having time to update. I used to wonder why Stacey wouldn't update that often.....now I know what it's like to be uber busy. Today is the 2nd of July. This summer has gone by too fast.

So I've decided I can see myself as a Pastor's wife. Of course, has to me the same denomination as me ....other wise I'd be supporting something that...I don't believe in. That's another thing added to my list of requirements for my future husband. People say I'm never going to find anyone who can fit all of mine....but I know God will prevail. Lord willing.... : )

Let me just start out with saying that Christian Bale plays the best Batman. George Clooney's got nothin' on him. God is so amazing to have created someone like Christian Bale. ; ) With my $0.02 out of the way, I will say that Batman Begins has to be one of the best movies I've seen all year. Next in line would be The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants....then next would be Phantom of the Opera. Star Wars fits in there somewhere. I'm not a big movie buff like I used to be...before I had a life. heh..wait. Still kinda working on that. I have officially decided that I will get the soundtrack to the Batman movie, and I will love it for all eternity. I was really disappointed with the Spidermand soundtrack. During the movie, there weren't that many songs that weren't instrumental/orchestral. So when it came to purchasing the soundtrack, there were only 2 tracks on there that were instrumental. It thoroughly disappointed me. Batman, don't let me down. Well folks....looks like I won't get to go see my mom this year after all. It's going on 2 years now that I haven't gotten to see her or my little sister. Let me tell you a little about them: Mom~ What can I say....I love her. She is most definitely on the crazy side, but hey, who isn't? My mother isn't afraid to voice her opinion....maybe that's why I'm so head-strong. She does things on the spur of the moment, but sometimes she lets the cares of the world weigh her shoulders down. You never talk during Oprah, don't say anything during the news, and always eat everything off your plate. She's outgoing in public and loves little animals. A bunny is her favorite animal. lol, she doesn't have an inside voice, but it's not shouting : ) She's very compassionate and emotional, and very strong at the same time. Her arms are never closed for a hug. And I wish I could see her. Chelsea~ A spirit of joy. She's smart and goofy. Her laugh is contagious and heartfelt. She is a person who doesn't want things to go wrong or bad. She's always generous and kind, but when it comes to her toys, that's no-mans-land. She has the sweetest disposition all the time, always giving people the benefit of the doubt. She doesn't talk down to anyone and always makes people feel equal to her. She's reserved and shy, lady-like, and very particular about how she acts. She's my favorite and only little sister. God has blessed me with such a wonderful, caring family. God is sovereign and just, merciful and compassionate and I don't deserve it.

I miss my sister, Stacey.

I suppose it's been awhile, and Michelle's yelling at me to update, so here it goes. Orientation for UNO was yesterday. Sorry Stacey, I'm offically a Maverick, but a Husker for football. My tour guy was really hot and funny. I still have to go and get my classes registered for. Fun....I hope I can get the classes I want. Anyway. I bought Bo Bice's cd today. Don't worry, it's not his actual cd, this one only has 2 songs on it. Big whoop. Still, I love his voice. He sounds good on cd and live. He's so handsome too. I talked to Tim and Ben today. I haven't seen them in a very long time. I had time to spare on my way to work so I just...decided to see how they were doing. It's good to talk to old acquaintances. Fred says drumlines doing just fine. David (their instructor) is uber hot as well : ) so BACK OFF LADIES! No...he goes to UNL from what Fred said. Heh...Fred....said...rhymes.. Wow, now the song switched to Gladiator song. I love Gladiator. adopt your own virtual pet! SWEET MOTHER OF MOSES I HAVE A PURPLE LLAMA! I'll end with that: I have a llama.

Just sitting here at Jordan's house right now. It's Josh, Jordan, Caleb and myself all watching Mr. Nice Guy. Actually, Josh just left to take Jordan's mom to work, but I'll be back soon enough. We just finished a lovely game of Life and I ended up with $1.2 mil. Yeah. I'm smooth. Josh ended with $3.4 mil.... yeah, he won. Caleb didn't have a clue in the world how to play the game. It's a pretty sweet deal. I'll end on that note: It's a pretty sweet deal. Here's another one: If it's sweaty, don't pet it if it's petty, don't sweat it. Thanks Mizzike Menendez.

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Today we have our last parade for the seniors. Yes. This is the best feeling in the world. Heh, now I'm going to start getting fat since band was the only thing that kept me in shape. Chels has this crazed idea that we're going to go to the gym everyday just so we don't gain that "Freshmen 15" or whatever. Going to the gym is fine by me, but I have a feeling I'm going to gain it anyway : ) Good'ay

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Well.... Saturday night, there was a theft. A theft that happened in my car. A theft that I didn't think much of. I awoke to the beautiful morning of that Sunday which for the 6th day I would have had to work, but a friend thankfully and graciously took my shift (old people have to eat too) when I came to the startling surprise that my car had an unlawful entry. At first, I noticed a certain portable cd player was no longer in my posession, along with the William Joseph cd that was in it, along with some change. At first, I thought nothing of it because those items I knew I could never get back. It wasn't until my drive to work on Monday when I realized that I had 2 (count them, 1, 2) Drum Major maces in my front seat....that have now also disappeared. It is also my fault for not having my doors locked because of a convenience issue for me (my locks are messed up) and should have had them locked,.... but for someone to get into a total strangers car and steal things.... I've got a parade in 2 weeks. So... of course, I reported it to the police, but because my car was unlocked, and I'm on liability only, I can't do anything except file a claim...even then, it's gotta be under my band directors name. Pff.... some work the police can do.

Is my daily battle for my faith something people can make fun of me for? Do people get pleasure out of calling me pure and innocent? Well, sorry if I'm living my life according to God's word, but I do believe I have at least secured a spot in heaven. I am so sick and tired of my faith being a daily battle amongst my friends. Do you know that in the Bible, it says not to be around those who are spiritually dead? Yeah, if you guys read your Bible's, you'd know that. I'll even tell you what book it's in, ....no, better yet, I'll let you find it on your own. It'll do you some good to be in the Word. Dang straight I'm pissed off. Other people's habits should not compromise my faith and beliefs. Yeah yeah, people are different and are intitled to their own opinions, but until you get to know me and find out what I deem appropriate for me to be around, hear, or see... just keep your mouths shut. I could start naming off names of all who I think need to have another looksy at their lives, but I'm too nice of a person to sit here and point fingers when I've got my own problems, but at least mine aren't causing others to fall in their faith. My conscience is clear and I have nothing further to say because I hope and pray God works a miracle in some lives very close to mine. Your Birthdate: April 30 Your birthday on the 30th day of the month shows individual self-expression is necessary for your happiness. You tend to have a good way of expressing yourself with words, certainly in a manner that is clear and understandable. You have a good chance of success in fields requiring skill with words. You can be very dramatic in your presentation and you may be a good actor or a natural mimic. You have a vivid imagination that can assist you in becoming a good writer or story-teller. Strong in your opinions, you always tend to think you are on the right side of an issue. There may be a tendency to scatter your energies and have a lot of loose ends in your work. You may have significant artistic talent and be very creative. What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

I am finally a high school graduate... welcome to more than half of the country's teen population. Not a big accomplishment, but most definitely a long term accomplishment and rewarding. More and more people are getting high school diplomas, so they're becoming of lesser and lesser value. Important nonetheless. There's some screwy things going on in my checking account, so I'm going to investigate tomorrow. As for the morning, ...ugh, band practice, luckily it's for my very last parade as being a Drum Major. It's been a pretty sweet deal. Having the whistle of power. It's great. So....how about that American Idol. Vonzell got the boot. It was a tough choice. She's a wonderful singer and very nice person by the way she sounds.... but I'm glad it's Carrie and Bo left. If either get voted off, I'll be satisfied with the other. They're both amazing singers. I really want Bo to win though, such a beautiful voice...and face to boot. What ever the outcome, it's by God's plan. Anyway, gotta wake up early tomorrow, so I'm out.

I can't help but think about him every time this day comes, well, tomorrow that is. My uncle Ace died in a trucking accident in the Rockies. I would like to know more about him, but I don't want to pain my dad and ask about how his brother died. It's been now nearly 20 years since he's been gone. I know he was alive for a short while after Stacey was born. I may have my history wrong, but I believe he died before I was born. We both happen to have shared the same birthday (April 30). In a sense, I think God was giving my mom and dad a way of remembering "Ace" (as they called him) because Stacey was named after Ace, and me being born on his birthday, gave them another alternative than bringing up painful memories. I don't blame God, or hate him for having to make my birthday such a vivid reminder for my dad, I don't think it's God's cruel sense of humor; I think it's God's way of humbling us. I know Stacey is also going through a trying time. Please pray for her. :)

Well, I can officially say I am a registered Republican. Stacey would be so proud. My birthday is but 4 days away. A little bit of an update is in store: District Music Contest was a huge success. 1+ were awarded to the few schools who truly deserved them, not saying that everyone didn't try their best. My heart and prayers to out to the school who couldn't be there at that time. (You know who you are). There were many fine choirs there as well. The band was simply amazing. I'm so proud to be a part of a group that has so much talent. I participated in a vocal solo and duet. The solo received a superior rating (1), my vocal duet received an excellent (2). I was also involved in 2 ensembles. The woodwind quintet and clarinet quintet also received superior ratings. So....3 of the 4 events I was in received superior ratings. Not too bad. No one walked home with any 3's from our school. I was quite pleased. Graduation is a matter of a couple of weeks. My life is truly about to begin. Highschool is merely a prep. I thank God for each day I'm alive and to give me the ability to bring glory to his name whenever I can. I hope I'm an influence to those around me to act as Christ did in everything I do. He is the true giver of good things.

Colorado Choir/ Ski Trip commences in just 3 hours! Oh the joy!

It's been a while since I've updated. If y'all really want to know what's been going on, then I highly suggest going to my other site. It'll be a bit hard to read, but it's ok. Make-do. Districts is coming up. Whoot. Nothing good to report, but nothing bad to report. I take that back. I stayed with Stacey last night. Whoo. 10:30 pm CST. When they say makes 24 cup cakes, they mean makes 24 cupcakes. (don't try to fit 24 cupcake making batter into a number less than 24) It was fun, we just had massive cupcakes.

Kimo just called me. He's a Hawaiian co-worker of mine...when I'm ...extremely white. Today has been a very good day. I'm so thankful for everything. Look at my other site for further details. Love y'all