I've decided to dedicate this entire entry to my good friend Anthony. I don't know if he'll ever read it, but it's worth the shot. We've been friends since junior high and we've stuck together through thick and thin with everything we do. You have been such a wonderful friend to me in my times of need, now I wish to do the same. You've been through one of the most difficult things to ever come in someone's life. Just remember this: James 1: 2-4 "2Consider it pure joy, my brother, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perserverance. 4Perserverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." In time, things will become easier to comprehend and deal with, as for now, just take it one day at a time. You have been such a blessing to me in my life, I can only hope to be the same to you. :) As a fellow Christian, it is my duty to keep you strong in your faith in your time of need, though I can't answer the questions that remain in your head like 'Why did God do this' or 'Why did it happen now?' But I can tell you that the Lord is good and is Just. It is by his grace that you are still able to be here today so you can show compassion to those going through hard times as well. Everything is permissible, but not everything is beneficial. This is beneficial to you because you now have a new knowledge of things. You can see it from a different perspective now. James 5:16 "Therefore....pray for each other so that you may be healed." I'm praying for you.