No verse again tonight. I don't really know what to write for this one. I'm starting to get kinda mad a Stacey. Well, not really mad, but just frustrated. I know it's going to be a bit "iffy" with me and Brian. I don't even know if we're really going to hook up, but apparently Heather told something to her that's got her thinking. I don't know what to do. He's already told me the things I've asked of him, idk, it just seems like he might be hiding something, but he said everything's he's told me is the truth. Ok, my sister (I'm not saying which one) dated a guy who slept with girls, did all sorts of drugs, drank and what not, and she has the nerve to tell me to not to get involved with Brian. I'm just getting this same.....crap....from her as I did with Tim. I'm really getting sick of it, and if she reads this, I mean it. Yeah, I know you mean well, but seriously stop it. I don't know, I'm so confused right now. I just want to cry. I like Brian, but then the whole age thing comes up, and I don't want people to look at me for it. Apparently if God didn't entend for anything to happen, he wouldn't have put these events in my life. I don't know. He's a good person, wonderful, sweet, intelligent. For gosh sakes, he's in a computer class lol. That really does say a lot. Maybe just to make my family freakin happy, I'll just never date again, then no one will have anything to freakin worry about. My gosh, I'm getting so sick of this. I just want to cry. I don't know what else to do but cry. I just wish someone would give me some answers. I just want to know the truth. I hope nothing ever changes... feeling wise... I just... I wish people would stop telling me what they thing I should do when it comes to considering things. Don't you think I've already considered it since it came up? I'll go pray about it some more, just Stacey, please stop telling me what to do with this kind of stuff. I have prayed about it, and this is the answer God is showing me. Just because it may not be what you like doesn't me it's not what God's showing me. I have prayed about this for weeks, going on almost a month now and I'm guessing this is what God wants me to do. Why? How do I know this might be? Because it's probably the most assured feeling I've ever had with anything, like when you know the answer to a test question and you know for a fact it's right, that's kinda how I feel. I am giving it time, just trust me when I say that things will be different this time. That I promise.... if there even will be a this time.