i dont know what to think anymore at this moment. i am so tired. i hate finals and i just want alone time. alone time w/ just with me and cody. maybe im selfish...i dont know life sucks and i wish the ending would just get here already. i know that boy over there in the other room who plays nothing but video games and such loves me. but at times i often wonder. i wonder if he loves his stupid little games more than he has feelings for me. *sigh* i hate finals....lack of sleep. stress and i just want to pull my hair out, scream and cry. I just want to have a moment during the day when its just me and him. and were not at his apt or mine or at school and hes not playing any of his stupid games. am i really selfish....i must be. why cant i have a relationship like laura and garrett. NO! *slaps hand* I cant be thinking of boys or any negative thoughts. im in Alpha Iota Khi and as being part of that one of the rules made by my sisters is no negative thoughts and dont be thinking or talking about boys. bc its not professional. and no cussing...