shit, so I've had this troubling thought in the back of my mind for the last few days. And today my friend L had just made that worrisome feeling more apparent to my mind. I think I might be pregnant... idk... I mean Im on the pill, but this past month I've been somewhat forgetful... but only for like two days... but idk.. ugh... but I have a appt for a ultrasound, to get my ovaries and fallopian tubes checked... :/ a part of me is torn... I really want to have a child... but I know for a fact that Im not ready... nor is the guy I am with... he's the type to avoid you and wanna break up with you if he were to find out he fathered the child... I know I should just dump him... and well Im trying to let go[again]... and in some fucked up obscure twisted way I am... Im slowly letting go of him.