i feel so...displace.. i dont know if i stopped loving him or what... i feel like i am not worth loving. bc he didnt/doesnt want to put the effort in. LOVE funny thing isnt it?? or was i in just a illusion of false pretense love? I want to kiss him and see if i still feel anything...or if he misses me... well nov 3 if my friend kims baby shower. I had hoped to go with cody. but that doesnt seem to be looking like a bright future... i have a better chance of getting hit by a car again