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well, i see that nobody really updates this stuff anymore. it's not like it used to be, that's for sure. and by that, i mean a lot of stuff isn't like it used to be. some of it makes me really mad and angry, or sad and a little heart-broken, or even happy. but i know i can't just write it all here and expect anything to happen or change. i must just confront the person making me feel either happy, sad, or mad, etc. whatev.

first of all, this site has become extremely hard to use and it's incredibly frustrating. moving on, summer is finally here. so much stuff is or has already happened this season already. and considering i want to remember it all, i'm going to document all of it. basically, i'm just gonna write my plans here. Summer '06 -soccer games -darien lake -graduation -our "senior trip" camping trip in webster park -graduation parties -toronto in august with my favorite people ever -summer classes at spins -my birthday -pools more to come.

it's been a long time. in the past few weeks much has changed. dance ended with a bang. it was quite sad and i balled my eyes out, but i know i'll never forget the past nine years. track also came to an end the same day as my dance recital. i'm also sad that track is over. i've loved doing it for the past four years and i'll miss the pent. and all the kids on the teams. we've had some great times. prom kicked some major ass and i had a ton of fun that night. yup it was awesome. school is almost over. seven more days. it's sorta weird thinking that i won't ever have to go back there again after june 22. whatever. this past weekend was pretty fun though. senior skip day on friday was totally awesome. just hanging out with kc, scott, brian and everyone was pretty fun. some of the best conversations i've ever had have been around a campfire. saturday was ball. and that was so much fun. other than the fact that i was sweating like a beast, i loved every minute of it. i just wish my camera hadn't died. brunch at bri's house sunday morning was delicious and buying new glasses was fun too. so, that's all i really have to say right now. i'm not sure how much longer i'm gonna be keeping this journal thing. it's been a long time, but it gets to be a hassle at times. but i figure this is one of he only ways to let everyone know what's going on with me, without having to tell everyone personally. so yeah, maybe i will hang on to this. we shall see. we shall see.

so, senior year is almost over. i'm pumped to an extent. i like that the school part is going to be over. but i am really going to miss some people. mainly the friends i have that i don't hang out with outside of school. i'll miss them. this summer should totally kick ass because all i have to do is work some and hang out with friends A LOT. that's about it. but lately, things have been good. dance is good. competition on sunday. school, well, is school. my friends are all doing pretty good i guess. at least i think they all are. personally, i'm good. physically, my body feels good. i have only a little pain in my one calf. that's not too bad. i can't complain. i believe that covers all areas of my life right now. and if not, well... let me know and i'll fill you in. ok, have a fantastic evening.

so today was great. well one, it's a friday, and two, it was just overall good. i want to just say that i love all my friends. even though i don't always agree with them, and i don't always approve of what they are doing, and i think that they can be total jackasses at times, and they don't listen to me, and they annoy me, and they do stuff i would normally not do. but i love them. even the ones that have strayed away. yes, people change. it's inevitabe. but i love them anyways. i think it's important for everyone to know that, considering i'm leaving in a short four months. i love you. yes, you, the person reading this. even though we may have gotten into a fight, or i don't really talk to you as often as i'd like, or things have just changed, you mean a lot to me. and i thank you for your time and what you have taught me about friendships.

to briana: check out my mood. awesome, huh? ok, so today was thursday. meet day. other than the fact that the team lost to irondequiot, i did actually pretty well. exceot til the end when i felt like i was going to throw up. that was not fun. had some good conversations on the ride home ;-D hahaha. so tonight i'm just gonna chill. i still might go out and get some ice cream. if i feel a little better. yupp. that's all i really have to same

so kids, i'm going to try and reacp my spring break. that might be a little hard cause i don't really remember what happened the whole time. whatev, here we go: thursday night i worked, big fun. friday i didn't do too much. i stayed around the house for the most part. that night i think i did something, oh i went to dance. it was cool cause they only people who showed up were me and tiff. so we did our own thing really. i can't remember if i did anything afterwards. think afterwards my mom and i went shopping. yeah, i got some new shoes, a shirt and jeans. saturday i slept in i think. oh wait, i had to work at 11. i worked at day. 11-7. then i think i hung out with kc, scott, and katie. we rode around webster at night and did some stuff that is probably illegal. oh well. sunday was easter. some family came over here and we had dinner. i vacuumed out my car that day. it was kinda dirty. and floury. monday we had practice. 9 in the morning. i was dying. not to many people were in town, or if they were,not many people showed up. maybe at the most 20 people. but that's a stretch. afterwards i think i just hung with danielle the rest of te day. tuesday i went to practice, even though their wasn't any. i had some good quality time to long jump and hurdle. it was a good time. they afternoon i went to the mall. bought some more shirts and a new necklace to match my prom dress, which i picked up on saturday (i forgot to mention that). and since i was their i visited bobby. i miss him a bunch. his brother was having some sort of party at their friends house so we went along for a bit. it was weird, i have never been to a party that was during the middle of the afternoon. but whatev, it was fun. i didn't stay long and when i came home i think we went out to dinner, but i don't remember. i filled out all the paperwork syracuse requires and sent them a check. yup kids, i'm going to syracuse next year. wednesday was practice. my alarm clock never went off and i ended up going late, like at 10. but i stayed arounf afterwards to workout in the weight room. wednesday night i worked. it wasn't too bad. thurday i went to practice again, even though their wasn't any. i worked on shot put. the coach that was their was helping me out a little. he gave me some helpful pointers. afterwards brian, kc, scott, andrew and i went to breakfast at golden boys. then we visited andrew mom at work. then went back to andrews house so he could let the exterminator in. he has ants, lot of them. then we went to brian's dad's house and watched some television. and then went to kc's house and played DDR. love that games. and finally we decided to go to dewitt and hit some golf balls. let me tell you, i suck at golf. but scott was a good teacher and helped me out a bunch. that night i did absolutely nothing. it was awesome. i haven't been home of a thursday night since before christmas. i always work. friday was practice again. and then the weight room. and then scott and kc came with me to pick up my dance costume from linda, the tailor. then scott came to my house and helped me with my yardwork. what a nice boys his is. then i took him home and mowed my lawn with our new lawn mower that i put together. it went quick. when i finished, and was showered, i went to kc's and me, him, scott, katie, brian, and andrew went to durand eastman park and threw the frisbee around. it was kinda cold, but still fun. i worked on my homework that day too. saturday i worked from 9-4. then went home, did some stuff, made dinner, then went to eileen's to hang with her and brittany deane. we did pretty much nothing, but we played more DDR. again, i love that game. then kc called me up and was like we're (him, scott and katie) at wegmans, so i stopped by on my way home. it was sorta werid. they we just sitting there. then they we to subway. i had some jolt. in was up all night. when i came home from that, i actually sat down at my computer and talked online, i haven't done that in forever. well today is sunday. the last day. not sure yet what's going on. but i have to work later on. it was quite an eventful break, even though i didn't go anywhere. yupp.

so, as much as i was fumming while writing the last entry, this one is the total opposite. it turns out that i finally did receive my financial aid from syracuse (with a little help from my mom calling the school to bitch them all out). it turns out that financially i'm better off going to syracuse in the long run, even with the extra fifth year. that is pretty sweet. so it looks as if my dream has come true. syracuse it is right? but no, i'm still undecided about RIT. so this week i really have to mull over the programs and minor discrepancies to make my final decision.

so i have not a lot to say. not to much has happenened in the past few weeks. outdoor started and it's not so bad, except that our meets continue to get cancelled. senior project is almost due and i'm getting frusrated because frank harmon has not yet called me back. college is a big pain in my ass. i really would love to attend syracuse but the money thing is a huge issue. my mom figured out that i probably end up having to pay off about $100,000 in student loans. that i am not looking forward to. but i guess RIT isn't a bad school. it's just not my first choice. i'm so excited about my competeions. the first one in in three weeks. i'm nervous but pumped to the max. i love this so much. i'm sad that this is my fianl year of dance. but i already know that this is gonna be one of the best years. the recital will kick major ass. from what i've seen and heard, this is a big year. so i'm excited. and i just can't hide it. ha.

i've been thinking a lot lately about the rest of this year. so much is gonna happen. graduation, college, leaving everything i've ever known and changing my entire life. it's sad thinking that i'll be moving away and won't be able to see all the people that mean the world to me everyday. so as of this day, friday, march 17, st. patrick's day, this is the countdown til the end of the year. spring break: 27 days senior dance recital: 71 days senior ball: 78 days last day of high school: 89 days graduation: 100 days 18th birthday: 123 days graduation party: 127 days... you all better be there college: approx. 23 weeks first day of my fav season... FALL: 190 days thanksgiving: 252 days christmas: 283 days new years eve: 289 days scary i know.

so this weekend was somewhat blah. worked both saturday and sunday. but i did go to the mall with my mom on saturday morning. that was fun. i got a new bathing suit and some sandals and underwear and the new postal service cd. and then that night i talked to bobby forever and he periodically gave me updates in the syracuse game. they are so totally awesome. big east champs. again. to i watched a movie and other random stuff. whatever. i had forgotten how much i love the movie gladiator. it's a great one. also, slaughterhouse five is actually a pretty good book. i've enjoyed reading it for the most part. except the parts about the aliens. that's just stupid.

so school again this week. you know that the only month with zero days off is march. that is not cool, and actually, this kinda sucks. but what are we gonna do about it. nothing. because we can't, because they hate us and they want to ruin our lives. not really, but that's sorta how it feels. so this entry really has no point whats-so-ever. have a nice day.

so february break is coming to a close. here's a recap of my week: friday night: i'm not really sure what i did. i went to dance. oh yes, then i went to hang out at tiffany's. that was fun, hanging out with all the dance girls. saturday: woke up at tiff's, went home and called in sick to work. i had some eye problems. it was not fun. so i did nothing all day. sunday: i went to workl after doing nothing all day monday: practice in the morning then i did random stuff all day. i'm not sure what i did that night. tuesday: practice again then it was super happy fun day. briana, kelly, and eileen all came over and then we started our day. first we went to tony's bridal shop to look at prom dresses. it was sooo much fun. we spent way to much time just trying on random dresses. but it was soo much fun. and i'm glad we went cause i totally tried on a dress i loved on me. hot pink isn't exactly my color normally, but it looked nice on me. next we went to lunch at kam wah chinese restaurant and met up with briana's friend jaci and rachel there. it was a good time.then we went to marketplace mall and walked around, looked at stuff. i bought some jeans. briana bought a ton of stuff. that was fun just hanging out. on the way home we stopped at bella you, another dress shop. i didn't do much there since i had already found the dress i wanted. i saw a little too much there. but also laughed harder that i think i ever have before. it was a ton of fun. then we dropped kelly off at target and eileen, briana and i spent a lot of time looking at the music. i finally bought the gray's anatomy season one and windshield washer fluid. it was necessary. we got some taco bell on the way home and pretty much after we got there kc, scott and brian all came over for a while. we watched a movie and other randomness. when they left i think we all sorta fell asleep eventually. or at least i did. wednesday: practice once more. then at 12 i had my laser appointment. i couldn't believe how fast it was. later that night i had my mom and aunt meet me at tony's to see the prom dress and i got my mom to buy it for me. that was pretty awesome. then i went to work. thursday: practice. then a lot of stuff i don't remember. i baked a cake and went to work early. friday: practice for the last time. then i came home, we out to breakfast, worked on my senior paper a bit and other stuff. went to forsey's for the pasta party around 5ish. hung out there, yadda yadda. went to kc's afterwards for a bit then was forced to come home at 10:30. eight girls were all running around. it was hell. not really, but it was soo loud. saturday: woke up around 9 then did some homework. that's pretty much it do far today. meet of champs today. whatever. so that's all i remember. it was good overall, i just wish it was longer.

so i wasn't feeling all to good today. not becasue it is valentine's day, but because today just wasn't a good day. this morning started out sucky and it never really improved. the only reason i write this now is becasue i have no one to talk to. i feel like i need to share, but i'm not sure what it is i need to share. i feel kinda shot down and nothing has even happened. not sure what that means. i just need some good news or something. something good needs to happen in my life. i feel like i'm always listening to other people, which i don't mind doing, but i don't ever talk to other people about what's on my mind. i have never been able to. so for that reason, i'll write here. for you people who read this, i'm not sure what's going on with me, but i don't feel good anymore. not sure why though. yeah, just need some good news.

so kids, you all know how i did at sectionals. seventh in both hurdles and high jump and nineth in long jump. i'm pretty proud of that. i had an overall good day, with track and with my life as a whole. some of you know what else was running though my mind that day. haha. yeah. about that, i'm not sure what to do with myself. or this situation. i feel like i'm outside the box just waiting to see what happens next, which i guess isn't so bad. but i hate to wait. you all know me. but i really like the song that i am currently listening to. so i'll give you some of my fav lyircs: so take me and save me and change me and then make me and embrace me and i'll brave my heart for you no, no, cause i can't go on without you and it's time for something new and no, none of it's true cause i never knew you and now the truth of it is, is i wanna be like you so hello, good friend, i wanna be next to you from my head, from my heart for it's true ok kids. have a good day!

so i just thought i'd tell the story of my saturday night. so i get to kc's around 6:40ish i think. Brian, Scott, Chris, Nate and Johnny were there and they were all eating McDonalds. Good thing I ate before I went over there. Then I watched Chris and Brian play Madden and KC and Scott put together some shelf thing. it took them quite a long time. then they cleaning up a bit. i helped. brian and i sorta had a plstic bottle war. i would have won if he wasn't bigger than me and if he hadn't pinned my on the couch. then alex called and he decided to come over. then they played madden again while i sat and talked to scott and chirs in the other room. then everyone looked up the stupid chuck norris jokes. lame? yes, indeed. then alex and nate went to go pick up kelly from work at 10ish. while they were gone scott, chris and i decided to have a dance party. sandstorm is the best dance song ever. then we got everyone in on it. it was fun til we started a mosh pit and i just kept getting thrown around. then all the guys ran outside with their shirts off in the rain. it was quite funny. kel and i ran out to watch them. then when we all went back in to dance all wet, it was fun. then we all sat down and started watching eurotrip. i ended up leaving not long after it started, but i still got to sing "scotty doesn't know." awesome. then i came home and slept. so that was my crazy fun night. i love those guys.

hey guys! how's it hanging? as of right now i'm feeling pretty stellar. even though i had a not so good day at the track meet today, tonight is looking to be a good one. i'm not sure why. it just is. i love dance this year. it's been so much fun and i can't wait for my recital. it's gonna be the best one yet. especially cause spins is awesome and we always go all out for the recitals. that's probably why they charge us so much. oh well. these are some of the best dances that i've done and with some of my good friends. i totally have a special bond with the dance girls. they are totally awesome. i love them tons. school is finally starting not to suck. i'm glad i have a block of study hall everyday so i practically don't have to do any of my hw at home. it's a great feeling. so i'm just waiting on colleges now. it's been four days. i'll know by march 15th. this is sorta nerve-wracking. so kids, have a fantastic night. i know i will ;-D haha.

new survey. yay! oh p.s. new background! ANSWER TRUTHFULLY... 1. do you like anyone?: i like a lot of people ;) 2. do they know it?: maybe... ha ARE YOU... 1. simple or complicated? simple when you get to know me IN THE LAST MONTH HAVE YOU... 1. Had sex: no 2. Bought something: Yep 3. Gotten sick? sorta 4. Been hugged?: of course 5. Been kissed?: by kelly 7. Felt stupid: all the time 8. Talked to an ex: yes 9. Missed someone: umm not that i know of 10. Got drunk: nope 11. Gotten high: nadda 12. Danced crazy: when has that ever not happened? 13. Gotten your hair cut?: no 14. Watched cartoons: actually no 15. Lied: maybe, but i'm not sure about that one RANDOM... 1. Nervous habits?: i talk fast, and move around a lot 2. Are you double jointed?: no, i am not 3. Can you roll your tongue?: yes, like all those other cool people 5. Can you cross your eyes?: ok seriously, who can't? 6. Do you make your bed daily? i try 7. Do you think you are unique?: yup i'm unique, i'm my own weird way HAVE YOU EVER... 1. Said "I Love you" and meant it?: yup 2. Given money to a homeless person: every thanksgiving 1. Do you swear?: occasionally 2. Do you ever spit?: only when it's necessary 3. You cook your own food? every monday and wednesday 4. You do your own chores?: not really, i work too much 5. Did you get laid today?: yes, yes i did... hahah 6. You like beef jerky?: no so much 7. You like pepsi or coke?: it doesn't make a difference, they both rot your teeth 9. You're happy with your hair? sure? 10. You own a dog? Yes, lady 11. You spend your money wisely?: i spend it all on my car 13. You like to swim?: at times 14. When you get bored do you call a friend?: nope, only when i have something to say 15. Are You patient?: i like to think so DO YOU PREFER... 1. flowers or angels? : flowers, they are tangible 2. gray or black?: grey 3. Color or black and white photos?: depends on what the picture is of 4. lust or love?: love 5. sunrise or sunset?: either 6. M&Ms or Skittles?: skittles 7. rock or rap?: rock 8. staying up late or waking up early?: depends on why i'm staying up or why i'm getting up 9. being hot or cold?: hot 10. Winter or Fall?: fall 11. left or right: right 13. having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends: 3 best friends 14. sunshine or rain?: rain 15. vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? Vanilla 16. boys or girls?: boys and girls 17. vodka or jack daniel's?: what a stupid question

I'm glad to have no school today and tomorrow. It's a nice break. We all need breaks. But I'm just so tired today. Probably cause I woke up so frickin early to take nate to breakfast. But it was nice. I enjoyed myself. I tried to study for the math B but then I realized that I don't really care. I've already passed it twice. And I don't want to go to work later. I wish I could stay home, Finish watching my movie and then go to bed. Oh well. Off to dinner.