ahh i havn't updated in forevre and cassie persuaded me to write. so im writing i first of all would like to show you that my background and icon is FRIENDS yes friends the best show in teh history of the world - amazing. --- hc is saturday and me and the best friend are chiilllllaxin over herrrre for a citbc night HELLLLLL YEAH and the friday befor eht ame and cassie are gon go alll out DOUBBBLE BLUEEE AND WHITE go shss seniors `06 EFF YEAH

ahh yESS!!! today me and some my gurls from my MA class las year are goin out to dindin!! YAYYYYAH tis gon be hotness all round..... whoot whoot i'm pumped. hahaill write about it soon later son AH ME NAD THE CITBC HAVE TO HANG SOOOOOOOOON IMA GO NUTSSSSS !! hopefuly tomorrow payce

THE PISTONS LOSTTT!!!! ahhh omfg i like almost cried WTF HAPPEND its ok tho they'll take it home next year..ow ow yeAH PISTONS DETROOOOOOIT

I TURNED 17 ON WEDENESDAYYYYY!!!!! WHOOOOOOOO haha yes ...im getting olderr NO MORE BABY MARIA ITS LIKE GROWN UP MARIAA WHOIOT WHOOT DEEEEEEETROIT BASKETBALL

:-O man oh man am i exhausted...i think i'm sick..ok no i'm pretty sure i'm sick, hpoefully i get better but if not THEN DIE SICKNESS DIEEE! on a second note. i went to east lansing today wtih the family to see my cousins new house and have dinner there its an hour away. gah it wasnt fun not when you feel like shit ah its alright tho. i took it like a man )urg( my cousins place is nice, and he told me if i go to msu then he wants me to come stay with him and his wife cause they have two rooms upstairs ready -awwwe how sweet of them- hopefully me and apes hang out soon cuase i neeeeeeed time wtih my bestest friend ever..gah STUPID PARENTS! mOTHER tRUCker aight i'm out XoXO NAsCAr

ahhhhhhhhhhhh SO SO SO BORED OMG AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BOREDNESS also i'm bored bored...........bored

imma put some pictures on here heh yay i know how to do it!! FINALLY erica making alex's dog poop the citbc flag! yes that is right

school sucks. we got meaps this week and next week and there isn't a point in me taaking them becuase i'm bullshittin teh whole thing..there is no way i can get 40 horus of community service to get the movie so ya know meap people SUCK IT BITCHES. heh... wow the year is goin by pretty quickly its already 3/4ths finished one more cardmarking!!! then ima senior!! WHOOT! yesh i'm so excited. gah i gotta make up a test tomorrow afterschool, then friday i gotta make up 2 more tests i hate this shit..wahtever i dont really care cept for my algebra2 test i needa get a good grade cuase gah im not doing so well work bites. i mean why the hell do i gotta work IM ONLY 16 DONT MAKE ME GROW UP. oh ill be seventeen in like 3 months which is pretty werid, ineve thought id live to be this long i do pretty stupdi thigns. gah ohh well -awright i'ma go *say what you want but i know what you're thinking- go where ytou want but i wont be too far*

happy birtdayyyy aprill my bestest friend ever!!! (i took her out on a date today yes i payed for everything- gah yah so i was the boy) HAPPY BIRTHDAYY GIRLLLLLL! :it was a straight faced lie- i believed. it was a straight faced lie you would ever leave me, but for now i'll keep believing your words, and soon enough my strength will return: ah spring break is like over- and i got so mcuh homework to do tomorrow..whchi i know i wont do..yano what- I HATE SCHOOL iiiiiii love chicago- i wanna go backk :( well im out- payce

i am completely tired of being sick *gah i was supose to work today but im not cuz im sick and awe april is sck too but i guess she be workin for me awe* -ima watch tv and take a nap- lalala ...gnight ya'll

0 wowey 0 a lots happen since the last time i wrote. so i'm not even gonna get into that..this past weekend i lost my grandma that lived with us :( rip granny. yano how that goes...its pretty hard things are changin way quickly. b ut i have friends and family that are here for me. i went to the ashlee simpson concert with the younger cousin and siblings. sigh.i was the oldest so i was infact in charge. how ironic is it that the first opening act was better than ashlee. *i think thist is a beautiful start* the click five kicks ass! fo' get 'bout it mo' talk later. X maria X

i feel like total shit gah, i been throwin up since 3 in hte morning- and i havnt gotten back to sleep, and i couldnt sleep before that so i got 0 freakin hours of sleep..yesh i am totally whipped out. i asked my mommy to bring me some fries on herway back cuse i want some fries from mickey d's ..oh yumm yumm yuummm i hate missing school gah i didnt want to miss nay school cause i miss way too much work and it just sucks balls makin it all up. but since we got no school on friday or next monday i got a 3 day week..then a four day week then the week after cause ofmyc ousins wedding i got a 4 day week then when i come back i got a one day week and then 3 half days !!!!! whoooo! bahh i think ima go to bed since i havn't yet xOx HaPpY VaLeNtiNe'S DaY xOx mArIa

-NO WORK TODAY- whoooot sigh ( i needa go shoppin ) last week i blew my pay check on clothes- and once i got home i realized i didn`t want anything i bought- gah how effing gay. and then i lsot the reciept WAT THA FUCK IS THAT!?! whenever i need my reciept i don't have it and if i dOn`t need it I FREAKIN HAVE it! today was the WiNtErFeSt ASSembly- orange yes0 i oranged it up wtih a xl shirt. oh how hot- w/ewhat gay effing colors fresh-green soph- yellow JUNIORS- ORANGE seniors -red gah gay gay gay i am effing sick of being a friggin junior i keep thinking that im leaving that hell of a school this year- which infact i GOT AN EFFING OTHER YEAR. 00tomorow im gettin fitted for my dress cuz im in my cousins wedding which is in 4 weeks00 ya know it hink that im gonna have to lose some major weight GAH WHY DO I HAVE TO BE FAT (&@(#$&@(#$)@# yeah what now awright ima go cause i don't wanna type i think ima eat som aminal crackers -you know i like it when you...- oX bUstY oX

To all the guys out there, you have to read this.. (girls read this too!) This might happen to you and your girlfriend. So treasure every waking moment knowing that she's still there for you. If you won't do it... who knows....this could've happened to her..its sad that you're not there to fight for her.... After reading this story, tell your girlfriend/boyfriend how much they mean to you and how much you love them. You'll never know... this might be the last time......... Jane is a typical college girl who enjoys life to the fullest. She loves her boyfriend so much and texts him every now and then. Mark is Jane's boyfriend who works in a call center in los angeles. He's always busy doing so many things. He only manage to reply to Jane's texts when he got off from work. One time mark received a message from jane : "hi baby! how are you? i miss you! call my house when u get home..take care! i love you!" mark ignored the message because he always receives the same message whenever it is time for him to go home from work. "baby, i miss you..did u eat yet?! take care when you get home! ill be waiting for your call..i love you!" "baby, where are you?! its unfair that you dont reply to my texts... well, im just gonna wait for your call..i love you!" Mark reaches home and lays on his bed. The last thing he knew was he's reading Jane's text. He was so tired he fall asleep and wasn't able to return jane's call. He can still hear his phone beeps but he's too tired to take a glimpse on the message. When he woke up the next day, he remembers that he needs to call Jane. He ignored the messages and dialed Jane's .. No one's answering in her house. He called up her cellphone and he was surprised that her father answered the call. In his voice you can feel his tears and hear his heart tearing apart. "Mark, why havent you called?. Jane was waiting for your call all night!" "Dad im sorry. i fell asleep being so tired from work... i was calling ur house but no one was answering. where are you? so i can come over." "Just meet me at jane's house." Mark went to Jane's house and much to his surprised he saw a lot of people inside. The house were so lighted but you can see the gloom on every person you'll meet there. He was greeted by Jane's mom on tears. She hug him tight and cried on his shoulders. "Jane was waiting for you. She didnt come with us because she was waiting for your call. She was killed by robbers that broke in our house. Shes gone, Mark. She's gone." "thats impossible..she texted me..how could this happen!" Mark can't look who's inside the coffin. He can't move and it feels like his whole body is stuck on the chair hes seating on. He wanted to cry but it seems that something is blocking his tears to fall down. He turned to his phone and read the messages of Jane. "baby, im not coming with my mom and dad..im just gonna wait for your call.." "baby..im so scared... it seems like theres someone downstairs..please call me now!" "babe..someones here..they might kill me..please call me now, where are you? i need you here..." "baby.... i love you!..." He wanted to shout and cry so loud. It's true that Jane is waiting for his call. Up to her last breath she only thinks about him. He stared at Jane inside the coffin. Suddenly tears starts flowing down his cheeks. He can't say anything. The only words he uttered... "My baby, i'm so sorry! I could have known, i could have fought for you! i'm really sorry! I love you so much!" Now, post this right after u've read it.. if u don't something bad will happen 2 ur loved one. -i really am starting to have lower and lower tolerance for retarded people that are stupid ..okie - good - tomorrow's spirit day is to dress as your favorite genre of music- ima do rap- hellz yah loll yay CHINGYYY I LOVE HIM imma marry chingy i willllll do it ;) ima go layder

i havn't written in this for a while -last sunday i went to the emergancy room for a pain in my side and i had a fallow up exam today i hate the doctors-gah -monday we start new classes cause its a new semester and im in aprils class whoot! so excited* -igotta work tomorrow how ashitty I HATE WORKING GAH thats ok tho cuase after work my rents are gon pick me up and take me to a pistons baskebtall game vs the chicago bulls- WHOOT I LOVE PISTONS AND THE BULLS WHO AM I GON ROOT FOR.. i donno i donno man i jus donno awright ima go now -talk later- payce

ME AND MY BESTEST FRIEND GOT A CLASS TOGEHTER!!!!!!!!! OH YES STEVENSON KNEW IF THEY DIDNT PUT US IN A CLASS THEYD AHVE HELL TO PAY- MUAHHAHA YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :memories: OH I CANNOT WAIT WITH ANTOHER SEMESTER WTIH MY BEST FRIENDDDDD

:ima vent i need to: i hate how poeple tkae things out on others. especially when its not your effing fault. everyone should start taking fault for their actions..so others that arent responsibble for it don't get pentalized ya know being the oldest sucks... you don't get any privleges you have the sme bed time as a 11, and 8 year old. and when you were that age your bed time was 9. what is the deal. is that being fair..is it being fair not letting me hang out with friends becuase your siblings dont hang out with them as much and you get compared to them? what the hell is this.. yeah sure i get some privlages of gettin more expensive things. but why would oyu want that if you get shit for it after- like my new computer ..how many tiems did i get bitched at for being a "bad kid" and threated to get it taken away..why would you get me somthing and just wanna take itaway from me..why do parents do that? now dont get me wrong, i love my mommy and daddy, but i get treated differntly because im the oldest and it sucks. i dotn wanan be treated negetivly different than my younger siblings, i should be treated equally. and they should get blamed for shit that they do instead of me gettin blamed for it..cuase i do my fair of retarded things but yano its not fair when i only get pentallized i know i dont have it bad but somtiems things just get to you. i'm actually thankful for my life cuase i know that it could be way worse..but im human. eh i know it sucks- oh well maybe itll get better until then ill jsut deal cus i know it could be a hell of alot worse :) ((try to avoid it..but theres not a doubt..theres one thing i could nothing about)) x3 MaRiA x3

-the sky is falling- iT`s a NeW yEAr...awh..i'm gonna miss 2004..tis when i met my bestest friend in the world!! APRIL!!!!!! and we created the CITBC..oh man oh man- 2004- forEVaH on another note- i don't wanna go back to school..and its like not even break naymore its just like a 'weekend' ahhhhhh i hate school die biznitch--oh well hopefully i can make the rest of the school year better..and next semester me and apes will have classes together ...or we better cuz then ill kick muh ass aight yano im gettin sick of typing..ima go layder yall' payce -be safe

- bYe byE 2004- heLLo 2005- yeSterday i went to see fAt alBert with the cos and the sibs ... cute movie- it was funny and marqueos houston is a cutieee! -sigh- she will always be thaaaaaaat girllllll- heh i luv that song..and before we went to coney island..ok i got a cheeseburger when i usualy get one those THEY GOT A LOT OF MEAT..BUT NOT AT CONEY-NEVER AGAIN WILL I GET THAT- NEVER- and we wetn to my mommys work to say hi! heh i love my mommyyyyy...then when i got home i stayed her for liek 15 minutes and went to dindin with the fam and got a veggie burger at aj alexanders..yummmm- then i came home and did nothhnig ahaaha yessssssssh- then i watched saving silverman- lol lmao thats the best movie ever in the history of the world, ok yeah i exaggerated but yakno i dont care- *dude you dotn gotta mke that ksh sound everytime it does it for you..ok man i wont mkae the ksh sound its the last time ksh- HAHHAHAHA lmao lmao awright today is the last day of hte year and im excited cuase i like new years YEAHHH STAYING UP LATEEE! yeah- i have a bed time-PPROBLEM ...shit i just dropped the mouse ..lol anywya my daddy is buying FINGER FOODDSSSSS YEEEEEUHHHH ..im not hungry tho i ate so much last night i dont think ill be hungry till night..which is good cuz then i can eat all the FINGERFOOOOOODSSSSSSSS whoot...lol awright im done writing I LOVEEEEEEEE THE CITBC

this journal and i are having a some issues..IT WONT COOPERATE WITH ME. i'm going to the movies with my cuzin layder to see fat albert.-ahah look sso funny.. i wanna see meet the parents tho, i heard it was reaLly dirty- and that makes me wanan see it even mroe :) the boys were supose to come yesterday..and the day before mine and aprils plans were ruined..AH DIEEEEEEEEEEE- its ok i'm ok..nope i didn't even bother gettin ready yesterday i stayed here all day adn slept and watched t.v yep..thats all 0oh and ricky is na asshole0 i love the citbc..and this is bullshit jAY GET BETTTER- sigh instead of going to twelve oaks on tuesday were going friday..and im making my mother preomise today- goddamn i htae hwen people lie to me... i think i should go start getting ready cuase i take freakin forever..but thats ok - its worth it at the end....... MHM yeahhhh....well i like 'em rough iight ya'll layder