back to this up and down cycle again. but i dunno. this time is different. i dunno if i care anymore. i do but ugh.. all i can feel right now is my stomach. i want to throw up. he makes me sad, as always. i just want to spend prom night with the one i really care about. but its not like he doesnt care.. but it seems like he doesn't want to go the extra distance for me EVER. oh well. i dont even know what i'm talking about becuase i keep getting fucking interrupted.