This is some good times. I guess I finally got pushed away and pushed myself away. so basically, i have a couple of friends but i'm here writing this entry. I wish he would call though. haha the first weekend I haven't seen him. Wow. Oh well, i'm not going to get too attached because, well, I know how it all ends. But, part of me says that's stupid because part of me tells me he's not like that. I will find a way to screw things up. I know I will.. I usually do. i'm always telling myself i need something new. so i went back to the old and there was no business for me there. well, back to the old two just not one in particular. i thought things were going well until it bites you in the butt. i guess there's nothing for me to do. everyone does that kind of stuff but rarely you get caught. yep you did get caught but whatever. i love how i went from crying one whole day to my life changing completely around. well, now i'm back into some kind of phase and i'm not sure if its the same as the old. i hope not and i hope i'm just overreacting. i cant help myself but.. who knows what this will bring this time.