I dont know what I want anymore. I'm stuck between my friend and how I want to be treated like he did before. Not be the outside of the circle amongst these new people. I tell myself I should separate for a while because then maybe when we "meet again" it'll be so perfect. Separating to me, I'm thinking like two weeks. Two weeks won't be long enough for that "till we meet again" mumbo jumbo. Separating for..... two months. That would kill me. I know where the easiest way to get a hold of him is.. but I'm soo tired of using it. I love going places and just talking and it hurts that right now I dont even know how to hold a conversation with you. I dont know how to get you to give me the attention like you did before. You are tired of hearing the same crap over and over but I'm still trying to clarify EVERYTHING. I wish there was an easy way of showing you what youre doing to me even though you dont know it. I wish it was so simple between you and i. Or is it ME again playing the fool. Fuck if I know..... I just feel like I'm standing still.