Im Fucking Screaming At You

Feeling: loving
Im going fucking psycho. I feel like Im on a bad trip With no acid or drugs. This shit is weird. I thought Id post this for Nick so he can see my kitty Well... Today was good, overall. I got switched out of my Art class, so I no longer dread the end of the day. Which is great. At lunch I went and hung out with Devon while he smoked a cigarette a block away from school. We talked, it was good fun. In PE we had to play basketball and I thought I would just drop dead and die right there. It sucked. And... James is getting charged with battery for beating the shit out of Josh. I told James he is my new hero. I honestly could not stand anybody near the spot where I usually hang out, at least besides Stevie and Chris. I mean... Its fucking ridiculous how fucking dumb some people are. I mean...Not specifics, just in general. I seriously grow to dislike people more and more every day. Any ways, Im in deep shit. My mom found out my grades... German - D Math - D Health - C English - D- PE - D Art - D Hahaha. Hey at least I didnt fail... [5:32] {edit} I just finished Perks Of Being A Wallflower again. I love that book, so much... It's ridiculous. I wish I knew some one who reminded me of Charlie. I feel like sleeping. I want to sleep. I don't know why...I just love laying in my bed with the covers pulled over me and closing my eyes and just laying in the warmth with the walls tainted a light orangish-pink because of the sun going down through my window, and the radio on low. It's just one of those moments where everything just goes away and its' just you surviving in your own body.
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PRETTY KITTY!!!! AWW!
I am going to kidnap your kitty! Lol.
-Love always,
Len
thanks. Got to love smashing pumpkins. I'm new at this thing.

is it alright if i add you as a friend?
[Anonymous]
bed...good...good...

lovely diary...lovely.
I love the Perks Of Being A Wallflower, I'm aslo rereading it at the moment.
The only flaw I really can see is that instead of it seeming like a story, it's a lot more like a collection of thoughts that the author had and collected them together with a simple storyline. Oh well. :) Nice kitty.
why thanks. you.re awesome.
i.m jessica.
a;vn;asodigha;ldfj crazy i am. okay. sorry.
i have to pack. adios dear.
sorry im grounded for a week from grades cant talk on phone for week
[Anonymous]

well. ive liked this kid for 10 months .. i mean its not that I cant get over him. with a little help I could do it anytime but I just dont wanna get over him because of everything me & him have had .. we just spent so much time together & we did so much :x I know what you mean about them blowing things off .. i mean i would ask him to hang out & he'd be busy then id find out he was hangin out with his friends --
-- and then the next day he'll apologize a million times & ask if we can reschedule blahblahblah. & alot of people have asked him out for me ( and funny I didnt ask them to ) then theyd tell me he " wasnt ready for a relationship " & he'll go out with some girl a week later. it sucks how they do something & then they suck up to us & we always forgive them because its the only thing we can think of because we love them so much --
-- I think that maybe when you said that .. he kinda got turned off by that & he lost some respect for you. I mean the guy I like .. jon .. he'll get really defensive when I dont believe him and maybe he thinks you just dont believe what he has to say & he doesnt like that.. I know exactly what youre feeling .. jon told me that I was one of the most beautiful girls he's ever seen & on halloween .. me & him kinda " did stuff " --
--and that night he claimed i was so beautiful & that if he didnt think that, that he wouldnt be with me & then on new years the same thing happened but then I was talking to his friend & ( this kid never lies ) his friend told me him & jon were talking & jon said that he really liked me. & I confronted jon the other night & he told me he thinks I should get over him & what not like .. he didnt like me as more than like " friends with benefits "-
this guy sounds confusing .. to me it sounds like for some reason he's making up excuses cause how youre describing him it sounds like his stories change. well I could try the question game .. but the thing is jon gets annoyed when I ask him questions :
I just usually ask him how are you .. that opens things up & we somewhat seem to talk more.

-im so glad I have someone to talk to that I can relate to ♥
i love that book so much, i wish i knew charlie lol. my friend told me that they're going to make a movie out of it but it might just be a rumor. i hope so. i don't want it to be a movie.