I have a new layout... This is what I do instead of not failing school. I hate myself at the moment, but none of my emotions are coming out in any way. It's like... I feel, but I don't care. I'm still just sitting here typing and not working. The negative reinforcement isn't motivating me to do any kind of work, and I'm going to die. I find myself completely indifferent. I bask in the beauty of a good song, feel the warmth of its solar beams, but awaken to find that it's burned my mind and my body has split at the seams. Ever felt like that? Fuck it. I'd kill myself, but the gun doesn't work. ~ Beth