Feeling: As though I can never be saved. If anything, the music will save me. Physically and metaphorically, it is my only hope for surviving in this mad world. My life truly is falling down like rain. I'm not going to be able to get my grades up, I just want to coast through life. It's like I have a lazy gene. I simply can't work. Usually. It burns me out like all hell. I sit down to do my homework, and at the first distraction, I abandon all hope of completion. I am programmed to fuck myself over. I can't live like this anymore... I fantasize every day about suicide. How great it would be if I could just slit my wrists and be done with it... But there is so much life to live, so much to see others accomplish while I miss out... Enjoying my rant? If you actually read this whole thing, please leave a comment so I can record the amazing moment. Also, if you ever feel the same way, talk to me. We can take solace in each other's hearts, for there is no other refuge. Peace and God bless, if God is even listening ~ Angel