so... i guess this has been coming for a while... it is time i feel to take apart a portion of my mind and try to figure out why i behave the way i do at a bar or club or some other place like that... i enojoy women... i enjoy every aspect about them... even bitchiness has its momments... but i am no longer content in a relationship... sense brittany i have tried over and over again in relationships but always fall into the same rutt... for the past four years now its been the same thing... i chase tail and play games... i would like to state that i dont try to hurt anyone and if anything make the other person feel as though they wanted to stop fooling around... i dont like being held down and i love going out and simply challenging myself on a one night stand... i would also again like to point out something else... this isnt about sex either... i went nearly two years without sex... yes it was recent... what i guess i am trying to say is that: *i hate being in relationships because i always feel out of place in them, like my trust in general for them has been blown away... *i like being a bachelor and being free to do whatever... --------------------------------------------- all of that though makes me sad because i would like to think that some day i may settle down but i dont think it will ever happen... as far as i am concerned, joel had my kid for me... --------------------------------------------- G brought up a really good point... I have started a few relationships but then backed down rather fast... i almost want to say it is part anxiety and part me just giving in to a particular situation... meaning that i i always tell myself no relationship before then i allow myself to get to that 'comfort level' with someone followed by going omg, im gettin the fuck out...