Hiya All long time no write. I kno its been a few days. i just have been like so majorly busy. Skool work and all that fun stuff. My confirmation saint report is due Sunday and it has to be like 4pgs long..... and I aint even started. Well what the hell lemme tell ya whats new round here. In gym on Wednesday Anthony and Nico pissed me off, and Anthony and grows his own stuff and deals it to people. And all his friends buy it includin Nico. So I was like fuck this. I dragged Sara to the principal's office with me and I reported all 4 of the dudes. And Today the Principal searched their bookbags and lockers. And nothing was found. So like the dudes are out to get whoever turned them in. They threatened like 6 different people already. Sara told'em it was Clinton so they're gonna jump him. But Sara being the dumbass that she is Told Juan's GF Ashley that we turned them in and Juan is Anthony's bud. So of course she's gonna tell'em and I'll get my ass jumped. Joy joy. I'm gonna start carryin mace to skool never kno when it's gonna come in handy. Well i decided today i'm giving up eating, But I'm going to start cutting again. because I Noticed back when I was cutting every night I didn't eat a lot and there for I lost weight. And I like NEED to lose a few pounds. back in July I could actually feel like my hip bone and I was losin an average of 2lbs a week. Which isn't to bad. And Like i Gained 25lbs since skool started because all of this shit keeps happenin and when I'm upset I eat. So I decided that Cutting worked as a better outlet. I'll just wear Pants under my gym uniform and cut on my legs. I'd rather be thin and loaded with scars then Fat and have ok skin. Maybe cutting will calm down my anxiety like it use to. I hope it does cuz I'm close to goin insane from all this stress. The damn Seattle trip is drawin closer and closer. i like really really don't wanna fly.Planes freak me out, especially after like 9-11. Course I really don't care if the plane gets taken over. Might do me a favor if some one kills me off before I get the chance to do my self. but then again there's no fun in that eh. I'm lookin so forward to gettin my New Breed cd and TBS cd's. Something to keep me sane! Anyways that's all thats new here for now. I better get started on my Homework packets. Peace N Love AmyMarie