Gah My mom is such a fuckin bitch!!!!.... She's all pissed cuz I keep sayin I don't want anything for my birthday. Wouldn't mind a one way ticket to Bristol....but....lol..... There's nothing I reallii want or need. Besides. She acts like i'm a fucking inconveince any other time so WTF makes my b-day so special? It was the day my fuckin Misery started -_- I hope she chokes and dies. Today at skool was odd. Like In Health we learned CPR and The Teachers aid nore Allie was there so I was the onli girl. And like I was in a group with Ryan and Adam. And Like Mr. C said....Don't stick your pen in the Manquins mouth....What does Ryan do? lol Need I say more. Well we had to pop the head off the body and un screw the head. Was funny as hell then Ryan started humpin it and i'm like OMG lol. Then Rich kept grabbin and touchin my ass....I was like Touch me again Fucker and You won't have no balls...No dick.....and I'll kill you myself. He left me alone...lol.... Man I missed Nick so bad this morning. I laid back down and watched tv from 6-7 before i started gettin dressed. I love talking to him. I am sooooo Imagining Life together with him. I swear...on my life... I will never do anything to hurt him....I won't touch another guy sexually. No other guy interests me. Just Nick. I see cute guys in the hallway But its like.....Nothing.. When I think of Nick...It's like.....I see stars.. I go to bed thinkin of him...Dream of him...and wake up thinkin about him. It's the greatest feeling in the world. I long for the day I can be in his arms. I've never been one for touching...But suddenly...it's like I crave his touch. He;s brought out emotions in me I never thought existed. And I love every second of it. Can sooooo picture a Beautiful Alaskan wedding....Sit on a snow bank curled up next to him watching the Northern Lights. There's no one else I can picture spending my life with right now except Nick. I'd follow him to the ends of the world just to be with him. Just like the song "You're my heart...My Soul...My everything" That is so true. heh to late for Him to back out....My first name and his last name sound Perfect when put together! lol....Ich Liebe Dich Nicky.... OH OH OH In German....Like My class is a bunch of older classmen nuts... Robert Was like eating sunflower seeds and Frau got pissed....so she started bitching so he had to sit in the hallway and he kept knockin on the door and makin noises and we were all laughin....was funnii as hell. I Love that class. Anyways tho.....So far have kept the depression at bay. It's less dense then before. I think Love is chasing it away...Best thing ever. There are such things as Angels.....And Nick is Mine..... "Stones taught me to fly.....Love taught me to lie.....Life taught me to die...." Damn you Nick!!! Have that song stuck in my head......Gonna strangle you!.....nah...hehe....Love ya to much for that....No more tit shots hows that...lol.... Anyways....gotta type up that fuckin report tomorrow and finish the Greece Display gah gay.....I'm goin to bed.... RaZoR wHoRe