"Lost chance" This little Angel sits in a tree Being as quiet as can be But soon suicide enters her thoughts She resisted and fought But she couldn't handle it anymore That's for sure She's lost touch with reality Her soul wants to be free she can't continue to live She can't forgive She wanted out So she took the easy route she doesn't regret, She wished to live a good life But she ended it all with a knife If only she could have another chance Maybe she'd give life one more glance Then things wouldn't be so bad Then maybe she'll realize the good thing she had But she didn't turn back As her world becomes Black "The end" Such an easy going child Some times she acts wild Pulling a stunt or two, But knownin when too stop She lives to shop But there's a side of her you don't see She keeps it hidden from you and me She really isn't who you think she is, She suffers eternally in her mind She always says it's peace she wishes to find Don't believe me eh? Check her arms and wrists and see what she has to say She'll tell you the truth about her cuts, scars, About it all She's on the edge getting ready to fall And it's coming fast She doesn't know how much longer she can last And to think all she wants is some one who'll listen, A friend As She awaits the end "Thoughts" I Slit my Wrists And wonder why Exist Why stay Alive Why try to survive? We're all gonna die So why Not push things along Sing death's song Take your turn Venture into the land of no return "Thoughts of a Suicidal" The thoughts of eternal sleep are like a dream come true Where there's no pain, No Suffering, No one to hurt you Where you can no longer feel pain Where you can finally be sane If only I could take that leap To have Eternal Sleep But I don't want to leave my friends I promised I'd be there till the very end And My end is coming fast I don't know how long I can last I'm torn between two worlds, Reality and Fantasy And I can't decide where I want to be Fantasy world is amazing Where the happy birds sing But in reality is where hate and death are But in Fantasy land all my problems are far I wish I could stay there Where life is fair But I have to stay here Where I have everything to fear If only I could make my life the way I want it to be Then I could be the real me Instead of this fraud Sometimes I think of myself as my own god I have Control of my life But it's controlled by a knife I've become a victim of it's hold My Soul I have sold If only I could live a life of Happiness There'd be no reason for Saddness If only I could be myself Maybe someday I will....... "Today" Today is the day, I've waited for I can't take it anymore Tonight I'll take my life I'll probably use a knife I cannot stand I guess a good life was too much to demand I can't handle pressure and pain I can't stay sane Now all I see is red Things will be better once I'm dead I'm going to die So I say Good bye "Together" What should I do? I have the urge to run to you I don't wanna be stuck here It's you I wish to be near I want to feel your loving arms around me When I awake, It's you I want to see I wear our rings around my neck everyday I know soon I'll have one on my finger, Where it shall For eternity stay You see, I have these ideas of us being one Doing things like going to a baseball game or the park for a run I continue to await the day when we shall meet Till Then I will settle for your voice so sweet As I days fly I know some day we'll be together, You and I "Torn" I hate you, Yet I love you I wouldn't even think of finding some one new Every time I think of you, My heart starts to ache I stay only for your sake I Love you so much But our relationship has lost its touch I hate you at the same time And I just feel that hate is a crime I don't know what to do But I do know I'm torn in two I don't think I'm being fair When I say I Love you and that I care I want to leave, yet I want to stay But there's no way I guess I'll stay with you And work my way through "True" You say I Love You And I know it's true Our Love so pure You're the perfect man, I know for sure Our love will last for all of eternity That's easy to see You're always there To show you care We talk about a lot of stuff I can't think about you enough I love you! "True Romance" Romance.....What does it mean to you? It means having your man with you Through and Through Through the good times and through the bad He'll be there He'll offer you kind words to show he does care Romance is talking heart to heart Never staying apart Working together as a team He'll make your life a living dream Being maybe to trust each other with secrets Never letting each other get caught in the nets Life has for you Making sure you both stay true Your Romance was sent from above Romance is a little thing called....Love "True Thoughts and Feelings" I feel ashamed of my feelings My scars scare people My Actions frighten you all What Can I do? You tell me to seek help Well I tried And Nothing worked I've decided my fate And that is to live no more I must leave this world now I'm being called away The voice sounds reassuring Promising there's no pain It's so tempting, I must give in I start to walk... And Venture into the great unknown "Truth" Everyone has their own opinion But some views society chooses to shun If you're not anti-abortion Then you aren't in People have their rights, so what if it's a sin Like Child Pornography just isn't right Many others share this insight Cruelty to animals just isn't fair And Yet people don't care Rape Victims, never see justice done For there is no severe enough punishment, none Older chicks and young dudes can date and thats okay But when will older dudes and young chicks get their day? Murder victim's families have to wait But Justice comes too late Or how about that husband that sleeps with every girl in town And the wife can only sit around Conclusion: Society has gone to hell So have you and the others as I can tell "Vengeance" Deep within me Lurks a hate I just sit and wait Till I go Insane I'll have my whole family slain It'll be payback for everything you've done You think it's okay to make fun of my sanity, friends and me But soon you'll see Cause everything has taken its toll And I've lost control I've harbored a bloody rage You can lock me up in a cage But at least I'll have peace of mind What I did wasn't a crime I had problems because of you And Now I have few I'm no longer depressed or sad I'm happy now, Glad That I got my Vengeance I ain't had a worry since I'm proud of what I did, Ain't no Lie I'm glad you bastards had to die "Voices" I have these voices in my head They tell me things I often dread "Kill yourself" No one cares, are the words these voices say On my bed I lay Taking a razor to my wrist Spreading a bloody mist Cutting harder and deeper, I don't want to fight I've sank to incredibly low heights I want to die I want to escape This is my fate Good bye and good night I have lost the fight "Waiting" I wanted a shoulder to cry on And you were there You told me I was special and that you'd never leave What happened to that? Now you're never around When I need some one to talk to, I talk to a picture of you I wish you'd reconsider the choice you made I'm in love with you And will always wait for you to change your mind I pray that you will come around Remember I'm always here Please try to be fair to me I gave you everything, Love, Happiness, and Friendship And Now that you can survive on your own You leave me alone Ignoring me You betrayed my heart and my trust I can only hope you'll come around Because I'm waiting..... Waiting for you "War" War, What is War? Fighting, Killing, Beating? No it's much much more Suicide Bombers, Plane hijackers, Insane Muslims, What could be next? Is the world under a hex? Why Can't Israel and Palestine get along? Why Fight for so long? September 11th, America felt great pain Because of some nutty Muslims that claimed to be sane If war is such a deadly game Why aren't the heroes ever named? Some Men have lived, Many have died But what counts is that they tried These wars we fight We do to protect our rights "War II" War! War! War! Die! Die! Die! These are the words our soldiers cry In the battle fields they lye It's a horrible fate thats true They died to protect you "Why" Why? Why? Why? Does this disease make me want to die? I really want to live But a voice says, My life I have to give I'm tired of living in the shadows of night This disease has made me lose sight Of all the good things that are in the light I think of how I can end my life These dreams involve a butcher knife The Voice says Pick a Gorey way Because you can't stay anyway Shock those that hurt you It's your way of saying Fuck you too Forget those that care They never treated you fair So why should you be in pain It's not your fault they made you go insane The voice repeats this long phrase Suicide is No Phase I can't stand it anymore I Quit this war I look for the knife, Like the voice said I drag it across my wrist, and see a river of red I look at my wrist An Artery sprays a bloody mist One person could have saved me from this fate That person was you, But your love came too late "Wondering" I Wonder why I bother to stay alive When I can barely survive My parents hate me, I know it's true Not once have they ever said I Love you I Spend my nights crying Thinking of dying I can't stand it anymore This is killing me for sure I'm going to commit suicide I know So Off into the unknown I go "WTC" Billowing clouds of smoke What is this? A sick Joke? Our Trade Centers disappeared without a trace All that's there now is open space The 1993 bombing didn't do much at all But this time They finally did fall Along with the towers went hopes, dreams and lives Not many people did survive Because How fast the towers came down Killing those in the building and on the ground Such a terrible fate Tuesday, September 11th, The Date It's now a memory But always a National Tragedy RaZoR wHoRe