Another depressing night.....Sitting alone at 3am in the morning...Thinking of suicide methods. Life really fucking sux. I seriously don't want to live anymore. Tired of living. I have no fucking social life. Except for skool I dont see any people my age. I'm around adults 24-7. Yeah I don't really mind it but I miss talking to ppl my own age. Everyone at skool thinks I'm some kind of freak. Melissa....damn I seriously want to hurt that bitch. She bitches at me because I cut and Purge. Her parents fucking Deal weed to half of lynwodd! She needs to shut the fuck up already....Can't stand that bitch. She's only some one to talk to in Shop class. She said in HS she's gonna drop me from her friends list. I can't wait! Well my dad is in the cancer ward now. Dr. K who was his Kancer doc 4yrs ago is now the advisor on his case. We think he has a terminal type and they just dont wanna tell us. But then again who knows. I am like so fucking pissed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My mom has to cancell the FL trip and The Eagles concert.... WTF is there left to live for......