I'm still here....I surivived the nite (Sadly)I seriously wish i would have gotten sick and died or threw up and choked. But no I had to fucking live. I fucking hate myself so much. You have like no idea! Scott got my voicemails....he hasn't said anything....Maybe he's ignoring me or maybe he doesn't kno what to say....I dunno....I'm just happy he's talkin to me. Oh yeah I talked to John and I challenged him to a drinking contest. I forgot tho that Sara has Acen so I cant stay at her house when I'm smashed...I'm still goin tho...I am bringin a camera to take pics...I hope Jimmy shows up too so I can watch them both gettin fucked up...lol... Well i cut myself today first time in 2wks. I have 3 cuts on both wrists, 12 cuts on my legs and three where my bra is...I'm gonna add more to that collection.... Newyz.....I'm off to finish my History homework....hopefully....lol.....I want to die....kill me plz