hello, so i am on the phone witrh justin...hah hes cool.and he thinks im cool because im a loser...and hes hot...and he thinks im hot which makes him demented...or disturbed...ANd he thinks im cute which means he has more problems than i do...which must be a lot...but for all of that i love him...blah...and then he does he does this little does his little laugh thing, which is adorable. and then he did it again..and now....hes quiet. and he says he loves me and i tell him i love him...blah...and he said i was sweet...i am not by anymeans sweeet... he keeps asking what im writing...so for this i write blah...and he loves cheese its...they taste like goldfish but in a different shape..who knows where that came from...hes asking if i like a kid named justin...i say maybe and he likes a kid named...BeeAreEyeTeaUhKnee...hah i laugh...he keeps aking me about my toy...to which i say blah....AND....something about hebrew...now something more about strip bars...and now...im holding...gawl...i love this kid...im just saying this to myself while im on hold...fun, eh? im soo insecure about this though, seeming he has a girlfriend..and i wonder if hes only saying this because he's horny...and i told him boyfriends were stupid..i think that ticked him off a lil...oh well..blah...realy, though...boyfriends are stupid...i think...i dont know..i think i might like him...but how is that possible, when im emotionally unavailable..no lie...i really. am....and i have just decided... FORGET boys with girlfriends. they're stupid...because they're boyfriends.
you know what would make me feel better? if it rained...i love it when it rains. it makes me so happy...i think its the smell...just the scent of rain makes me happy...that or dew on the grass in the morning or late at night..i think basically all small drops of water make me happy...im 'scited just to see it rain....ah, the perfect day ther would be dew onn the grass and then...it woudl rain in the afternoon...just like a shower...not a storm...or maybe a storm..with a little thunder, some lighting...all teh while, laying outside in the grass, laying on a blanket...just me n someone...just..sitting there in nature...being me and whoever im with..