Well, I have a pile of assignment and shit I could be doing but I have that much crap running through my head at the moment I can't concentrate. There's so much shit happening again...Its like everything will be fine and all at once everything happens....Pisses me off.... I got with this guy last week, I still havent heard from him. Maybe he just doesnt have any credit, i was hoping that might be it but I think he just wanted sum sex, he got it and doesnt intend on talking to me until the next time he wants some....It was good while it lasted, I just liked the feeling again of bein able to lie there in somones arms, its so good...I felt like nothin else mattered...I dont really have any feelings for him...Its just more of a physical attraction than anything else, it was just nice not to feel so alone...That probably sounds pathetic but I don't know how else to explain it... As for the guy that was going away, I came to the conclusion the other night that he go to hell after our conversation...I hadn't talked to him for a week and this is how it went.... Me: hey Him: Hey Me: how r u him: good, u me: alright Me: I haven't talked to u for awhile Him: Maybe I havent felt like talking to u... Me: um alright.... Him: Maybe I've more important things to do than talk to you Me: um ok *silence* Me: I never said u didnt *silence* Me: Well obviously you have more important things to do now than talk to me so I'll go *in my sarcastic voice* Him: yup good *I hung up* So that was great, just as typical as always, I actually have feelings for someone and they fuck me around and throw it back in my face. Fucking typical... The fact that before that happened I was already in a shit mood coz I got a msg from raymond that afternoon saying he found out where my necklace was, so I all excitedly rang him asking him where it was and he said "Ive found it alright" and I asked where and he said "Around skyes neck"....I swear my heart could of dropped out of my chest right there and then. I don't know whether I was more angry or upset...both I think. Because of the fact, that he blatantly denied he had it to me and to raymond and he lied about it time after time again. Also because of the fact that he knew what that fucking meant to me, he knew how much the guy I got it from meant to me and to me to even give it to him in the first place was a huge deal for me, so not to give it back annoyed me, but when i found out she had it fuck I got annoyed... I hate her so much, Shes not keeping it, I will get it back....They can threaten to kill me, bash me, show up at places wanting to, send ppl out looking for me, abuse me, do what they like but theres no way in the world she is keeping it... Leah is pissing me off but thats a whole different story...I'm just sick of her and her slutty ways.... -------------------------------------- ♥ My life reads like the classifieds Pages of whats for sale Whats on the auction block Attention bidders! Its line 45 She's got a decent voice, She's got that crooked smile Hold on, you havent heard the best yet She writes good storylines, She's got those honest eyes So take her home for just $9.95 She'll sing the songs you like, She'll keep you warm at night --------------------------------------♥ My grandmother died last night, It doesn't actually worry me all that much coz I wasnt that close to her and shes been dying for the past 6 months and shes better off that way but the atmosphere around here atm is so tense....I hate it...Life goes on...That may sound very...unsypmathetic but its true...She was old, she had cancer, she died...Simple as that...Funeral should be interesting though...Since all of dads family hate each other should make it a very interesting day...Seeing as they haven't all been in the same room as each other since the last funeral which was about 20 years ago.... Other than that everything else is alright, work is shit, school is shit, being alone is shit...Im just in a bad mood and Ive had enough of everything and everyone.......... --------------------------------------♥ baby dont you know we're all whores -------------------------------------- ♥ Another knife in my hands A stain that never comes off the sheets Clean me off I'm so dirty babe The kind of dirty where the water never cleans off the clothes I keep a book of the names and those Only goes so far 'til you bury them So deep and down we go Touched by angels, though I fall out of grace I did it all so maybe I'd live this every day Another knife in my hands A stain that never comes off the sheets Clean me off I'm so dirty babe The kind of dirty where the water never cleans off the clothes I keep a book of the names and those Only goes so far 'til you bury them So deep and down we go Touched by angels, though I fall out of grace I did it all so maybe I'd live this every day your my star If looks could kill you'd be a murderer....or maybe just a whore...