"Don't try to tell me what to do, don't try to tell me what to say...I'm better off alone anyway." God, I was a depressed child when I went out with Julian...lol...Or maybe these are from after I found out about him and Najha...Whatever, I was goin through my diary...not online...and I found some poems in it and since I don't really have anything else to write I'ma copy them into here: ~~~~~~~You Will Never Know~~~~~~~ You'll never know how it hurts so much To see you with her, and want your touch I know we are done over through But you don't know how much I still want you I hate you, I don't, it's all the same My world was so simple until you came The sound of your voice, your laughter, I miss If only we'd shared one sweet kiss Then I find you have with another girl And everything's wrong inside my world You will never know, you will never find out How I feel about you, and what it's all about ~~~~~~~The End~~~~~~~ I think that this one was before I went out with him...me don't remember... ~~~~~~~Depression~~~~~~~ Depression is my impression I'm depressed, you're not impressed Do you care? No, you just stare Do you care about my life? What if I took it with a knife? If I was not here tomorrow, would you bow your head in sorrow? Or would you feel so very free? Free of the burden of me. Am I worth your time? Is my life just one big crime? Am I really meant to be here? Why is my life so unclear? Does everyone else feel this way? Or is this just the price I must pay? What is it that I really fear? Why must I fear to let them near?... ~~~~~~~The End~~~~~~~ Yea, ok...That's enough of Erika's poems...You gotta fight me for the rest...*yawn* Anyways...Being single for me sucks ass. I could never really see myself as anyone's gf, but at the same time I wanna be someones gf. I hate the whole peer pressure thing. Like all these guys mess with me...and I don't mean pick on me...Then they ask who I go out with. And I'm just like, why do I have to be going out with someone. I mean, if I was goin out with someone I wouldn't even bother with some of the guys I talk to...OK, not really, but still...It sux. It's just overwhelming at times...Like I feel sooooo alone, but it's not something that I can just call up Kelley or someone and be alright...No offense Kelley, but you know what I mean... GRR! Ahh, whatever...I'm thinking too much and it's making me feel worse. I'ma go talk to ppl...luv ya all...byesy...*muah*