I'd like to wake up now... It's like this has all been one big dream. Meeting Eduardo and wow... Just knowing him. I saw him on Friday. I was very happy. I was very, very, very, very, very happy about that. I was still babysitting when he came over so he was helping me out with them and then he went and talked with my mom. And yea, the kids left and he was still talking to my mom so I went to my room and I was just kinda sitting there holding his shirt. Then when they were done talking me and Eduardo went downstairs and watched a bit of Sin City and I took him to the creek behind my house, and wow... He... Wow... He told me that I was the closest he's ever been to love and that, he loved me as much as a 15 year old could love someone else. And yea... Wow. He promised me that we'd see each other again and I told him that he better keep his promise. Wow... We were talking last night and he was saying all this stuff that... Wow... He told me I was beautiful and that I should never change. And then he was talking about oversleeping so that he missed his plane and he could just move in with me and my mom. And I was saying that I'd never have a bad day if that happened cuz I'd wake up and know he was in the other room. And most ppl would just be like "Yea, I would" or whatever. But he was like, "That would be awesome, cuz you don't deserve to have any more bad days..." And he just kept asking why I made him get so attached to me and all this other stuff. And I dunno... I don't want him to go, but it's too late for that cuz his planes long gone by now... I've been crying since like 2:30 this morning... and it's 2:15 in the afternoon right now. Yea, I talked to him earlier and I feel bad cuz I had nothing to say. I was just kinda... I dunno... Wow... I dunno. I tried calling Evelyn... Yea, I've called her a good 20 times in the last hour, but everytime I called she wasn't home and now no one's answering period. So yea... Her mom's probably tired of seeing my number on the caller ID. This sucks... He's barely been gone that long and I already feel lonely as hell. I don't think it's really, really gonna hit me until I hang up with him for the last time today, cuz I'll realize that I won't be able to talk to him whenever I want to anymore cuz of the whole 6 hour time difference. Yea, causes a slight problem... Only slightly... I feel bad cuz I'm the reason he really just doesn't want to go to Hawaii anymore. He's having serious second thoughts, and he's had enough doubts in his life. I don't wanna cause more. heh... He said he was gonna write a poem about me and that he's gonna start sending me random poems and just... Wow... Yea, I'm gonna go... Maybe I'll call Evelyn again... I don't know what I did to deserve him, but w/e it was, I'm really glad I did it...