I'm having some weirdly mixed feelings right now. I wanna leave, but now I don't want to. I told Steven I wanted him to go to SkateQuest when I'm there with Amanda, but I really don't want him to anymore. Chris said he might go too. I dunno, AGGGHHH!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!?! I dunno, I'm excited and at the same time I'm dreading the whole thing. Like I had fun last year, but at the same time it was like the loneliest thing in the world which is why I got all depressed and shit the last week and they ended up sending me to the psychiatrist...I dunno, I feel really stupid. I just wanna sleep and not talk to anyone and just be like...Not here or anywhere. See, I'm not even making sense anymore. I dunno, this is fucking stupid. I'm gonna go finish packing or something and then I'll try calling Kelley again and then I'll cry and feel stupid for that too. ah, w/e...I'm out, I'll try to make another entry before I leave Sunday, maybe after I get back from Amanda's thing and write about that. But if I don't get a chance, bye you guys. Love you all and I'll miss you guys. No computers!!!!!! Yea, tell me if ya want me to call ya while I'm gone. You guys know my AIM. Adios. P.S. Don't forget to give me theme suggestions and I'll look at them when I get back and see what I can do. If ya like them you can copy them, I don't really care, just let me know so I don't like go to your page and be like wtf.